Aoi Hitorigoto - 47. Wedding - by Katô Shigeaki
Aoi Hitorigoto - 47. Wedding
My friend held a wedding ceremony. I've known him since about 5 years ago or so, and he held a wedding ceremony last month. Yesterday they had their names entered in the family register and their child was born in autumn, the wedding ceremony of such a friend.
There is probably a surprising number of wedding ceremonies held everyday in the world, but I attended one for the first time. When thinking about it, I have not ever been to a wedding ceremony in 22 years, but it's not because I never had the chance to. Even to my cousin's wedding ceremony, I should have been able to go if I wanted to. Of course there is also the fact that I couldn't arrange my schedule, but certainly somewhere in my mind I instinctively tried not go.
Essentially, a wedding ceremony is once in a life (although that might also be not the case a lot of times). A once-in-a-lifetime big event. It is a day that the women in the world probably yearn for but I simply can't understand it. It's because I have no interest in marriage at all right now. Saying more than that, I have no interest in love either. Well, even if something like “Have more interest in it !!” is said by the readers who are fans, I'm troubled, and when I end up falling for someone, at first I think “argh, I'm already fell in love. What a hassle”. In other words, I'm a person who is reluctant to love. There is no impulse for wanting to fall in love at all. There are a lot of reasons, like lots of things become difficult, and I don't want to experience the feeling of loss due to separation (of course including the case of death) that probably comes about 80% of the time. I'm afraid to fall in love. As for marriage being the extension of that, I also have the fear that my life would be more restricted. I think I want to marry someday eventually and see what mychildren are like, and because of the that the desire of wanting to marry does not become equal within myself.
There is no good reason why a guy who grumbles about it like that is attending the important wedding ceremony of a friend. Because that's probably impolite, participating in a wedding while thinking like that. That's why I didn't go to wedding ceremonies until now. However, this time I lost to my curiosity. A friend's gala occasion, and I who didn't try to see this in the system of a wedding ceremony, ended up circling the the character of attendance on the written invitation.
The hall for the ceremony was in Miyazaki, the hometown of my friend (the groom). The style of ceremony itself was cozy
with only relatives and very close friends, but that extent that the gap was very short. My thoughts were briefly that I was impressed. I certainly was moved, because I thought that such an unexpected place might not be used. The church of a hotel, the look on the face of the father of the bride that was full of joy and sorrow, the cutting of the cake, the poor quality of the slideshow, the few words of the priest “Do you promise?”, and then answering “yes” , and the kiss of the husband and wife.
Even I, who declared that love and marriage are undesired by me, still envied those two in that moment. I hate to use such kind of words like “happy” carelessly, but those two were truthfully “happy”. I have absolutely no idea how happy it makes those who marry the ones they love. Perhaps that's why the groom looked so divine. However, I was glad I attended the wedding ceremony. Perhaps marriage is a good thing. Will I be able to also have such an experience someday? If that's possible it would be good. Because I, who was talking pretentiously about love thought in such a way.
On the day of the wedding ceremony, the weather forecast had said it would rain, but it didn't. Well, maybe it rained a little bit, there was a rainbow. A very beautiful rainbow. The rainbow that stopped the rain had spread across the sky on a grand scale, as if rushing to the new departure of the couple.
Take good care of your wife and children. Really, congratulations. I wish you every happiness, forever.
Please note that English is not my native language. Although it doesn't feel like a foreign language to me, I'm aware that sometimes the phrasing might not be completely correct. So, I'm open for any corrections, regarding the Japanese-English translation or just the English in general.
And please don't take/re-post my translation without my permission, thanx.
:)