Last week after the bar closed down, after our bellies were full and we all said our goodbyes..I decided to venture off and meet someone new. 4am on a thrusday night I went to one of the only places that cater to niteowl drunks and met someone whom I had been messaging through a dating site. We just sat outside smoking and drinking...talking. He ( Read more... )

I've been to far too many funerals I care to have been to. Went to another one today. You'd think after a while you'd get the etiquette down. Said goodbye to a co-worker/friend. Sat next to his best gal pal and we both teared up at the finality of it all. I put my arm around her and rubbed her back...but felt so awkward doing so. She and I aren't ( Read more... )

Screaming at the top of my lungs, but not asking "What's going on". For some reason on my drunken way home I felt the urge to scream in my car as I zoomed down the highway. I can't remember what it was that compelled me to do so. I awoke this morning with a raspy and aching throat. Whatever it was going through my inebriated mind...I hope it helped

Shitty week for me to try and break my abstinence. Got stood up and find out later that the guy who stood me up went on a morning "date" or whatever the same day he stood me up with a friend of mine. Then find out another fella who seemed really interested is all of a sudden in a relationship. And just a few days ago he was going on and on about ( Read more... )

For a brief moment in time, I had switched hours at work. I blamed my current state of the blahs on that. But now I am back to my normal creature of the night schedule, and the blahs are kicking in overdrive. I need an escape from my mind, but I am too cheap to see a shrink about it. Been contemplating a big move. But to scared to actually go ( Read more... )

I don't know what is worse....being cheated on sucks. But so does being unattractive and single. Oh well...hopefully I can find a lover that isn't that worried about looks.

Think I will fast until thanksgiving...it's only a week away. Starting tomorrow...no sugars, no food, just water and maybe plain tea for when I get too tired...tea and cigarettes...daily vitamins...I need to change.
But....is it really advisable to trip acid while fasting? Suppose maybe i'll find out this weekend.

Last night I re-visited an old haunted trial I used to work at while I was a teenager. Brang back a lot of fun memories and got spooked quite a few times as well.  I'm a easy target and was trying to be an even more easier target as I was walking with a very nervous and scared special needs kid. (Figured they'd see me as the easily frightened one ( Read more... )

Lots of stuff going on....well not now...but yeah things have happened since November ( Read more... )

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