It's been soooo long now, and I'm not sure I can stand much more. Living with someone who is basically a drunk is like dying slowly at someone else's hands. I know you'd say "It's not EVERY night!", but it's enough where I am very quickly beginning to resent and even hate you a bit; wondering what the hell I'm putting myself through this for ( Read more... )

So I've been beating myself up because I gained back TWO pounds....TWO. I had THOUGHT I was at 182, and then I went to the Dr.'s, and noooo...the nurse says 186...I KNOW it said 182 that morning, so I go home and re-weigh myself....186. Damn it! I was so happy! And so I managed to get it back down to 185, and then this morning, I weighed myself ( Read more... )

I don't know why I'm so emotional lately...I know a friend of mine would say it's because I'm listening to all that damned Snow Patrol music, lol, but I just downloaded a few songs for Dave! I swear ( Read more... )

So today after taking a shower, I took a long hard look in the mirror. You know how when you've lost some weight and you're starting to feel a bit better about yourself, everything, and you're like, "Yeah! Now I can look good!". Yeah, and then you look into the mirror, and well, it's a bit of a letdown, 'cos you're not as good looking as you ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning around 6 a.m. with the most unholy urge to go to NOLA.com and see Jackson Square early in the morning or as the sun just hit the streets there...It was obssessing me until I actually stopped lying in bed and just got the computer and tried to get online, and OF COURSE, the wifi wasn't working (AGAIN), and I kept trying ( Read more... )

Today and this past weekend have been pretty lousy. First, my son had to be rushed to the hospital with numbness, pains in the chest and abdominal pain...turned out to be an acute appendicitis...he had it taken out on Sunday; everything went ok. Until today. The "woman" he's on and off with couldn't have cared less that he was in the hospital and ( Read more... )

I was going to use this journal as a weight loss journal, but well, to tell the truth, I just bought a scale and I'm AFRAID TO USE IT!! I know my jeans are a little bit looser, but I guess I'm just a bit afraid of having an actual number to now worry about (although this week at the Dr.'s, I'm going to know, so...(and I swear that skinny nurse ( Read more... )

So WOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! We won!!!! NY are the NFL Champs!!!! SOMEONE here bet against me with the Pats, and guess who just won $50?!? YUP!!! HA! Take THAT, traitor ( Read more... )

How the hell am I supposed to lose weight here when you keep bringing home things like Chocolate Mousse cake?!? Seriously?!!?

God, it's calling my name right now..........

G. 1/23/12 2:04 p.m.

I think there comes a time when you just have to realize that there's nothing left, and it really IS over. When someone has such little regard for your feelings that they jump up and run out the door when a certain person (yes, a woman) calls, and right in front of you, well, let's just say that I'm not a fool. Can I prove it? Of course not. Is ( Read more... )