I've decided it's become dangerous for me to live in Oregon. This weekend... was awful. I got stood up. All of you picked me up and I love you to death for it.... but then I was literally bottled up and pushed down again in a way that is going to take much longer for me to recover from. I hate cryptic livejournal blogs but I don't wanna talk about ( Read more... )

thanks for the support guys. I really needed it. I feel like complete shit. I'm still worried about him tho cuz I haven't heard back from him and whatnot. I'm really watching raise your voice and damn. i can't tell you. im really depressed im enjoying this. lol. seriously. i can't wait to go home. meg(s) if you guys were at home and so was john ( Read more... )

so i got stood up. and it made me sad/mad. he hasn't even called me back. something bad better have happened. i know that's awful. but yeah. i just feel like shit. nobody loves me. :(

omg. i want to die. this kid is so annoying what do i do? i want to die. but im committed. he's making excuses. why is my life so fucked. why am i obligated to help people i really don't enjoy? I am so pissed. I can't believe I let myself get into this situation. Can I just move away and never come back?

So I am really annoyed. I am stressed enough as is and it's like. Crap. There's one person in my life who means the world to me yet he consistantly condesends me. I feel so riddiculous when I'm around him sometimes. He seriously is very irritating. If I'm not on task it's my responsibility. I mean yeah I'm going to pull an all nighter but after the ( Read more... )

I realized I'm not as scared of people as I should be. I walked home alone (from campus about a half mile from where I was) at 4am.... without getting freaked except the last block. And I thought wow those two boys who refused to let me walk home alone sure were wrong. (I lied and said i called the shuttle service but I didn't because I was like I ( Read more... )

So I was commenting in Mish's journal and I realized how retarded priorities are. I lost two friends last week... two people I knew very well from home. My friend also lost someone very important to her. Why is it that we have to push everything aside to take finals? Neither of us were able to attend the funerals.. I'm not sure if I would have ( Read more... )

cold+flu+dead week=nicole being pissy. be warned.

Sooooooo basically life is so wierd. Everything for me is looking up... in August. Apparently this summer will be good it's just the rest of the year I have to be afraid of. How is everyone else doing?

So basically life has become very very difficult. I'm just.... tired. I'm really sick. And very tired. Life is a highway and my cars gonna break down. How is everyone? It seeems like a trying time in life for everyone. Just know I'm here for all of you ok? I care about each of you and can't wait till I come home and see you or get to see you next. ( Read more... )