One year later

[ganimede]

This time last year I was in Boston with ftmichael, playing nurse after his hysto. It was a Sunday so I'd gone off to Dunkies to get our breakfast - all by myself! I was doing a Day in Pictures thing too so there's a photo of me before I set off looking rather cheery. I'd spent most of the day playing Guitar Hero 5 until about 4pm when I decided to do

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[psychokitten76]

{{{{{hugs}}}}}

[ganimede]

Thank you :)

[ftmichael]

I can't believe it's been a year either. I've been a lot less busy than you have and even to me it feels like it was just recently. It makes sense that it was easier to make that transition with it being right after you were here though. I'm glad that was at least one thing that was easier for you than it might otherwise have been. It can take a long time to get used to someone's absence even if you didn't particularly like them or they weren't there a great deal, so yeah, a year is still only early days yet. But it also doesn't feel at all like so much time could have gone by already. It's weird how time does that, and it probably feels all the weirder given your relationship with him and the complicated feelings around that. But as more time goes by hopefully those jolts will get less and less frequent and the weird feeling will fade as you continue to adjust, and hopefully in time you'll be able to process it more which I think will help with the adjusting.

*big hugs*

[ganimede]

I think it's hard to process it because I wasn't here and I still don't really have a great idea of what happened at all. I had to try and ask my mother for more information the other day but it's hard to even raise the subject.

[ftmichael]

*nods* That definitely makes sense. It's understandable that it's hard to bring it up at all but I hope you're able to get more information at some point so you're more able to process what happened. :-/

[assiduous1]

I wish you the best in this trying time for you, and want you to know that you are in my thoughts.

[ganimede]

Thank you, I really appreciate it.

[bella_cheval]

[big hugs]

[ganimede]

Thank you

[geneticload]

So weird how life changes and sometimes you don't notice except in the most mundane ways. I'm not saying you don't notice in the big ways, but it's so strange how the little ways are the ones that really seem to get people.

[ganimede]

It's the same when you're in a relationship, it's the little things that matter like the sight of that person's favourite mug/item of clothing/book or whatever. It's like a little part of that person in some way.

[geneticload]

I try not to take this little things for granted. This conversation is another good reminder why.