I decided to start writing here again. Uhm. Wow so much has changed I wouldn't even know where to bwegin. So I won't bother trying. I am staring a website, I'll post the link when it's ready, oh and I'm no longer hopeless and bitter. (Yeah found a nice boy.) Lets see, I'm mad at my so called "best friend" Jacky. (I'm losing faith in the best friend ( Read more... )

I've reached a weird point in my life. Where I am learning lessons everyday. And I'm realizing everything I've done wrong in the past. And I'm using it as a reference to what I need to change in the future. I'm just coming to so many odd conclusions, that I should have realized long ago. And even though I can't change everything in the past. I ( Read more... )

I finally get close to somone and again I get screwed over. I'm done with trusting guys. I'm sick of having the same things happen. I get no good reason. But I geuss he just didn't care about me. Anyways whatever, I'm getting to the point where I don't even care anymore. Anywho hafta go to the store. I just signed the lease with laney, I officially ( Read more... )

I had my feelings hurt over and over yesterday. Won't name anybody. But I don't think people understand that I'm really sensitive. And yeah yesterday was crappy. Today..isn't so great so far. And tomorrow I'm back at work. This hasn't been a good "weekend" at all.

I just had the weirdest dream that my ex-boyfriend tried to rape me, he was beating me up, and I finally got away. I was crawling to my friends half naked and beaten but nobody would believe me. Everyone took his side. And in the end the only person there for me was Jenn. And I had my head in her lap and I was crying. It was very scary, but not ( Read more... )

Yeah I got fucking wasted last night. "Fuck You I'm drunk! Fuck you I'm drunk! Pour my beer down the drain, I've got more in the trunk. Fuck you I'm drunk. Fuck you I'M DRUNK! And I'm going to be drunk till the next time I'm drunk!" Sorry. Yeah so anyways. So wasted. And I realized I'm a horrible influence. I've been dating Joe like 3 weeks. And he ( Read more... )

I'm in a hyper mood. So get ready for a hyper happy journal entry. Uhm.....updates. I've decided I love my friends even more! Yipp. Yipp. Annnnnd. uhm. I had a decent day at work I geuss. If totally poopey = ok. I got movies though! I've always got teh movies! I got the exorsicm of emily rose, office space, and ghost world. (Cause ghost world is ( Read more... )

Joe's a meanie. He hurt my feelings. :( Now Imma go outside and smoke a cigarette cause thats what us "crazy" people do.

Went to my first day work at Hollywood video. Was pretty easy. I get free rentals! Yey! After work I saw joe. <3 and laney and john. We all watched waiting. I've seen it a bagillion times now but it's still great!They left joes at 5am. We tryed to watch Last Holiday but got bored after five minutes. (It's not like I payed for it. I can risk any ( Read more... )

Well I just got off work. I was planning on going to an orientation. But apparently i was supposed to work 12-5. And I officially start tomorrow. Which sucks cause I don't have a uniform. ugh. But I have 24 hours to worry about that heh. >':'< Anyway ugh. I feel tired and it was a crappy walk and ugh. It wasn't bad work though. Free movies!