i havent updates in a while ive been a little busy driving myself crazy. i dont know why i take on so much, iam just one person. just one stupid little 5 foot nothing girl. i feel like iam always just so worried about everyone else i never have time for myself and what i need to do. and there is just so much that i want to do and so many ideas i ( Read more... )

just hangin around waiting to attend little jimmy inemers(fellow einstein employee)prom. ehh it will be a fun time i guess. if i could only get my mind off of one thing. well see, hopefully ill know more then 3 people there. i cant see austin tonight b/c of this. i miss him but i think he realy doesnt want to see me right now anyway.

Happy Easter everyone. i hope yours was better then mine. i went to work, stayed over time. came home wasnt hungry by then waited for my family to leave. took a nap and tried to pretend that everything i have to do, didnt exist. clever huh. yeah it doesnt work. then my day got even better when austin<3 came over to give me my kiss good bye before ( Read more... )

so for this being my senior year and all and its supposed to be the best ever. it Fuckin sucked. this was the worst year out of the last 4 ive spent here. i feel like ive just had disapointment after disapointment. My friends are gone away, ive done nothing but work my ass off i never know where my money goes and i worry too much about other ( Read more... )

my days just keep getting better and better. that numb feeling you get when you wake up in the morning is the only feeling i look forward too. Some guy told me today that if it wasnt for bad luck there wouldnt be no luck for people like us.
story of my life.

my baby just went back to school. i miss him already.<3
but i have plenty to keep me busy untill austins home again!<3

Im still working like a mad person on all the work for saturday. but i took a nice needed break to follow my religious happenings of project runway. slightly disappointed Chloe just isnt as invasive and creative as santino and danny V. I feel as though Danny was thrown back because of his age. I loved chloe but she only seemed to be in to for the ( Read more... )

saturday is my FIT portfolio review. iam nervous. iam not done my design test. i havent finished my essay questions. and i decided to start from scratch on my design sketches friday. i still have to shoot some of my dresses and get the rest printed and color copied. and i think iam getting realy sick. or iam dieing. either one i dont know yet ( Read more... )

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i think sometimes i say and do alot of wrong things that i dont realy think are bad at the time, but everything always seems to blow up in my face, and hurting someone. like the time i told the anorexic girl she was getting alittle chunky. i think iam gona go back to keeping to myself. that seemed to work out for me for the last 18 years ( Read more... )