Keep me sane chapter 4

[eadwine63]

KEEP ME SANE.

Authors: chichachu and eadwine63
Fandoms: Gackt, Hyde, Moon Child
Disclaimer: We don't own Gackt, Hyde or anything to do with Moon Child. We only own this plot.
Pairing: Gackt x Hyde... basically
Rating/warning: NC-17. Sex, bad self-image and over the top emotions, confusion and basically LOTS of drama. 
Summary/setting: Gackt and

Comments

[love_teddies]

awwww.
loved the part where gackt turns the table pretending to be sho

[eadwine63]

^_^ thanks for commenting. And yes that was a nice part. ^-^v

[a_deux_vitesses]

I was not expecting Kei to be the one who opened the door 0_0 And so he knows everything Hyde does? I wonder if Hyde will find out about what's going on eventually.

I felt so bad for Kei after reading this chapter though :( And it made me think, maybe he's really not so different from Hyde after all.

The ending was really cute ^^

[eadwine63]

Yes Kei knows everything Hyde does. Since Hyde doesn't know he exists he can't consciously block him out. That's how it works in here. xD Of course Hyde will find out, otherwise this would have no end. He'll also get over things rather quickly, but otherwise it would have dragged and I didn't want it to go on forever... O_o" ah well, you'll see. I won't tell too much. ^_^"

Of course Kei isn't so different from Hyde. He's just as lost about his feelings than Hyde is, even if it's in another way. He also doesn't know how to handle his love towards Sho, just like Hyde can't cope with the tension between him and Gackt. Kei is also just a person with feelings, thus he can cry too. And after all, this is still Hyde we're talking about.

I'm writing too much in my comment, right?? O_o"

but thank you for the nice comment. ^_^

[a_deux_vitesses]

No, it's ok, and I like long comments anyway~

If you don't mind my asking, about how long have you planned on making this fic?

Aw *hugs Hyde and Kei*

[eadwine63]

well I myself had the idea of something like this in my head for a long time already. Then we had to start a new RP and we wanted to do something around Moon Child era. Then this came into life.
So it was both planned and unplanned. I looked some things up about schizophrenia before this so... I don't know how long planned it. xD it just came into being.
We don't really plan out our RP fics that well. We did write this with publishing it on here in our minds. Our other RP's are not so publishable. too much drama etc. xD this has a lot of drama too, obviously but still this is somewhat realistic. xD

[write_my_dreams]

At least Gackt has come to his senses now and realized how stupid it was for him to lie to Hyde about what they did last night. I hope he'll be able to talk to Hyde about this soon because Hyde deserves to know the truth

[eadwine63]

well, ehm... *goes off in a rant about Hyde's illness now* Kei sees himself as a different person, who just happens to be in the same body as Hyde. Hence... it's also HIS body, so he doesn't really want to use HYDE for sex with GACKT/SHO. xD he doesn't really want to hurt Hyde, but he does think that it's also his body, his choice. Because, ultimately ... it's still Hyde, who kind of wants to be with Gackt and can't. It all has a reasoning, although I'm not as good to let it all show up in the fic... -___- I try and hope I kind of succeed. Lol... it's complex and I can't really explain that well. It's like... Kei is obviously still HYDE. But you also have to view him as a different character

[write_my_dreams]

Ahh okay, I thought he was just using the body he had to get laid. At least he cares about Hyde then. LOL yeah you are confusing me, but in short they both want to have sex with Gackt. Hyde can't since he's married, but still has that desire.

It really would have been too much. I just thought it would be funny XD No he couldn't help him at all and it'd just cause too many problems. (That'd work)

You're welcome. It's definitely heavily, flatly just sounds... weird