I know Van and Eric will be brilliant, but that doesn't stop me from being profoundly sad that they are killing off such a great character and that Luke doesn't get a happy ending.
I've been really upset for a while now and it hasn't even happened yet! My family is sick of hearing me vent about everything, but I just can't justify this to where I'm okay with it. Maybe after I see how much Van and Eric put into this...but even then I'm still gonna be a wreck.
I honestly cannot believe how upset I am. I am fucking devastated. It's embarrassing how upset I am. I feel kind of broken inside right now.
I don't think I can watch. (I reserve the right to change my mind.) My plan right now, though, is that today was my last day. I can't handle this. And since they aren't real people who are gonna know if I don't show up in their hospital room, I can opt out.
Real life has enough pain. I didn't need this. None of us needed this.
Real life has enough pain. I didn't need this. None of us needed this.OMG YES. This is one of the reasons why this ending pisses me off so. damn. much. We have enough to deal with in RL, we don't need this. We need heartfelt lovely-ness between our boys that's going to send us away floating
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My biggest fear about watching it is that I have an 87 page fanfiction that I need to finish. If I watch it and it becomes too real to me that Reid is dead, it might kill the story. Hell, honestly, having watched the promo, the story might be dead as it is. Besides, everyone's going to be in so much mourning, who would want to read it even if I did finish it? Whatever. That's not why I write. But, yeah, I am afraid of risking that story.
My employers will be out of town next week and I am trying to decide if I should spend the days writing, or if I should watch the show so that I can cry my heart out without any worry of anyone seeing me since I'll be alone in the office. I know, though, if I watch, there will be no writing. And this is a fantastic opportunity to finish the stories.
I don't know.
Sorry. Your journal isn't the place for this. I'm just sort of babbling now. I think I'm in a kind of shock, even though I knew this was coming and have since like June.
No worries. Feel free to babble all you want. It helps me realize that I am not alone in how I feel. I'm so torn because I know van and Eric loved this ending, and I know they'll be fantastic, but it's just such an awful end to L/R's story. Ugh.
I don't think you should worry about your fanfiction, because we in the LuRe community will DEFINITELY read it. Even if it's sad and heartwrenching, we'll still read it. I really hope that if you choose to watch the ending, it doesn't kill your drive to write. Don't let it ruin something else for you!
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I've been really upset for a while now and it hasn't even happened yet! My family is sick of hearing me vent about everything, but I just can't justify this to where I'm okay with it. Maybe after I see how much Van and Eric put into this...but even then I'm still gonna be a wreck.
~G
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I don't think I can watch. (I reserve the right to change my mind.) My plan right now, though, is that today was my last day. I can't handle this. And since they aren't real people who are gonna know if I don't show up in their hospital room, I can opt out.
Real life has enough pain. I didn't need this. None of us needed this.
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My employers will be out of town next week and I am trying to decide if I should spend the days writing, or if I should watch the show so that I can cry my heart out without any worry of anyone seeing me since I'll be alone in the office. I know, though, if I watch, there will be no writing. And this is a fantastic opportunity to finish the stories.
I don't know.
Sorry. Your journal isn't the place for this. I'm just sort of babbling now. I think I'm in a kind of shock, even though I knew this was coming and have since like June.
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I don't think you should worry about your fanfiction, because we in the LuRe community will DEFINITELY read it. Even if it's sad and heartwrenching, we'll still read it. I really hope that if you choose to watch the ending, it doesn't kill your drive to write. Don't let it ruin something else for you!
Agh. Now I'm rambling. Stupid show. :-/
~G
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