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This is important.
For too many years I never had time for this kind of writing but I see now that it's very important. Even stopping for a few days gave me the feeling of sliding back.
I'm still a little paralyzed, but I think I need to remember that it starts here. Finding the focus. Picking the next thing to work on.
the game
the videos
jobs?
Can I do all three? I ( Read more... ) -
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Today I need to get groceries. And I need to get more serious about the job hunt even though it gives me so many painful feelings. I'm going to make some phone calls now. There's a job that I like but it's a long shot so I'll call at least.
I keep on thinking that I'm just a dead weight and a burden and I recognize that that isn't healthy thinking ( Read more... ) -
Running again.
For the first time in a long time I went for what I'd call "a run" it was very short but also very good. I'm not really doing much about my diet at the moment. But, if I can do runs that feel like runs I might be on the road to recovering.
I'm still hit by pangs of sadness all the time. I feel like I've lost a lot and thrown a lot away. I wonder if ( Read more... ) -
If I want to get anywhere I need to act the part at least.
I think I've thrown off some useful habits out of a desire to be less pretentious and over-serious.
I'm intrinsically overly serious so why fight it?
So, I'm thinking about regulating my time more carefully.
I've never owned a TV but I feel like my computer has become a television. I need to reduce the time I spend being passive and just taking ( Read more... ) -
I'm back
I think I'll fire this old thing up again.
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Abortion itself is not reproductive freedom, adventures at dailykos...
Abortion itself is not reproductive freedom, abortion is one of many technologies that can help make reproductive freedom a reality. Some other technologies are other types of contraception and methods that increase fertility. If we mistake abortions themselves for "freedom" we could incorrectly conclude that black women, who have more abortions ( Read more... ) -
Gender, race identity and the youthful world of imagination
I've been binge watching the "new" Dr. Who. In general I'm a fan, the revival is great and in some ways better the the original (though the nostalgia I get from old episodes will never die.) Dr. Who had a big impact on me as a child he's always been a kind of fictional role model for what it means to be brave, curious and endlessly drivven to ( Read more... ) -
Urban Naturalist: The size of the city.
Running in the city is one of the best ways to learn a neighborhood, and the surrounding neighborhoods and then the whole borough… and then the whole town and then the county. As day by day I grew stronger, running further and further, New York City seemed to shrink under my feet, bridges and parks, that once seemed so far away now seemed close. I ( Read more... ) -
On the untimly demise of cream top yogurt from Stonyfield.
There are many kinds of yogurt, but by far the most enjoyable and satisfying are those made from non-homogenized, whole milk. Homogenized milk has an unnaturally even consistency that prevents the cream from separating. The result is an artificially even texture that compromises the delicate rich flavor of the milk fat-- The same idea applies to ( Read more... ) -
She runs in a plain dress.
Christian heavy metal? Really? "No it's Awesome" Rebeckah, insisted as we went down in to the basement of the farm house. It was cool and a little damp down there and quickly Rebeckah flicked on the florescent light reveling plain white walls and boombox sitting on a ledge. She shuffled through a box of tapes popped in the right one and put the ( Read more... )