I would like to point out something inadvertently strange about this moment. I was just importing lots of classical music on my computer, and reading back in my livejournal archives from exactly one year ago today. And I noticed that when I wrote that past entry, I was listening to "3 Gymnopedies" by Erik Satie, which I'm listening to my mom play ( Read more... )

Hello, livejournal world. I'm feeling fairly good right now, as I'm eating cereal and drinking coffee and I've still got a good half hour or so to waste time before I get ready for work. However, I am really not looking forward to yet another 8-and-a-half-hour shift today. My job is already trying my patience, mostly because I constantly feel like ( Read more... )

I start my first day of work tomorrow. Despite how terribly convoluted things are recently, and how anxious and overwhelmed and awful I have felt much of the time, things are starting to look up in my life in a way they haven't ever before, really. I've finally found a new job in a small, more calm store environment working with very nice people ( Read more... )

( I got bangs. )

Still sick. I just made a couple of hoarse phonecalls, and I know I will be out doing things tomorrow, regardless of how I feel. I do think I'm on the tail end of this, fortunately, for I can't handle staying in much longer.

I'm angry about my grades. I got an 85 on my Calculus final, which is about what I expected; however, 85 was the highest ( Read more... )

My body feels very brittle. I think this consistent lack of sleep, consumption of unhealthy, bad-tasting food, and the studious yet generally very inactive lifestyle I lead has gradually pushed me to this point, where I always seems to have some physical ailment in an arbitrary part of my body. I imagine it's some knot of stress that just moves ( Read more... )

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Oh, the things which I cannot say.

Even when I am happy about one thing or another, school can always bring down my mood and confidence in myself. My grades are slipping, still, to much lower now than I ever thought they could. Not only did I reach a new low on my last plant biology test, but I now reached another new low on my last chemistry test ( Read more... )

I'm ditching plant biology to sit in my room, listen to music, perhaps nap soon, and in general do absolutely nothing (for a bit). I am rather happy about this. My motivation and focus towards school have reached such an incredible low that every class I go to feels like sheer torture. I can't stay awake, let alone care to listen, write anything ( Read more... )

I'm in relatively high spirits this week, though rather out of it and unfocused, but anything I would or could say about myself in here feels terribly selfish now, when there are such appalling things happening around to people just like myself. There is always something horrible going on the world, somewhere, and unfortunately it often takes a ( Read more... )