i know, i know, i haven't updated in a lifetime. but i've been incredibly busy with work and trying to move out and all that good stuff. mostly work though ( Read more... )

heh i did that little thing where you type in your user name and see which words you use the most. hector was #34, nick was #68. thats all i need to know. lol

Hey guys ( Read more... )

just read some old AIM conversations between me and nick, pre-dating. they made me smile and even giggle at one point. i missed him for about a minute and then closed the file, still smiling. the past is the past is the past. i cant bring my nick back, but i can remember him and smile ( Read more... )

i got up at 9am feeling really great this morning. like REALLY great. i hit the gym with hector for like an hour and a half and afterwards i felt even better. i came home, started straightening my room and thinking about lunch and a shower and stuff when my mom walked down the hall and completely ignored my "hey mom" except for an icy glare ( Read more... )

my bad mood from earlier has just melted away now that i think i've got things figured out.

ok, so...POS job (if he lets me have it, and it looks like he just might) is a 40 hr a week job. i can take 1 night class a week (photography) and one online course. oh god please let this work out for me.

i just got out of the shower and i'm lounging around in a towel. i feel all clean and nice chillin in my chair and letting the breeze from the open window float around ( Read more... )

i just read aaron's super long post and it really got me thinking about stuff. mostly about nick, i guess, and how i wonder if i should have all these deep thoughts and deep things to say about him. but then i remember how he treated me and how i am bored with thinking about him and my mind drifts off to another topic. (while i was in the shower ( Read more... )