Vanilla Twilight [2/3]
Title: Vanilla Twilight
Author: Fuji-chan
Rating: PG-15 (for language)
Genre: Failed romance
Words: 1,021
Pairing: DaiChii (DaikixChinen); YamaChii (Yamada x Chinen); other pairings
Disclaimer: Vanilla Twilight is a song from Owl City. And DaiChii belongs to meee *killed* [and for some fans out there. XD]
Author’s Notes: The italized words are the lyrics from the song.
WHAT?! Breaking up?!
Recently my life had some twists and turns. Chinen broke up with me, I acted like nothing’s happening, and then I saw him having fun with Yamada. First, I was broken, now I’m jealous? But we’re not even together anymore. If I talked this out with them they wouldn’t like it anyway, since this love is now one-sided.
I guess a friendly wave and smile wouldn’t hurt, “Hey Yamada, do you have free time tomorrow?”
“Sorry, can’t,” he didn’t finish his sentence, but he pointed at the small guy beside him. Of course he knows, and he doesn’t want “to break my already broken heart”. Speaking of Chinen, he lowered his hat to hide his face when I saw them. So this really proves that he doesn’t want to see me again.
Well, fine! If he’s better off without me, then I’m better off without him. no one will whine beside me, no one would slack off and sit on my lap while I’m doing my homework, and no more annoying kid who would cry when he doesn’t get what he wants.
I’ll call Hikaru. I’m going to have a fun day with the guys.
I watch the night turn light blue
But it’s not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn’t so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.
Now that he’s gone, everything goes so smoothly, but it seems that something is missing. I don’t know if it’s really a thing or a person. It can’t be, since I have everything I need. And yet there’s something in me that tells me to search for it, yet I’m always saying that I didn’t lose anything.
OH SHUT UP. I’m tired of lying already.
I can’t take him off my mind. Everything that I see or do reminds me of him. Simply having fun through other things isn’t just enough. Why would be break up so abruptly? It’s like we’re fine one minute ago and then poof! Everything was forgotten. I’m sure he’s having fun now with Yamada. Yamada is a reliable person, very nice and sweet…
”THEN I HATE YOU TOO!” I was only joking when I said that; how about now? Will I hate him just because he doesn’t like me anymore? Because I’m too annoying? Or maybe I’m staring to hate him because I’m jealous on how he can cope in a break-up and still be golly happy after it.
Earlier I saw them together going home from school. I can’t really say that I’m stalking them, because Yuto was nice enough to join me, then asked Yamada if we can tag along. This is the first day that Chinen and me are together again after our break-up, well, technically we’re together in a group. It’s pretty awkward; no one tried to speak up. The tension’s really high, and it’s the tension that we always feel every concert.
I don’t like this anymore. Because of us, even our friends get tangled up in our problem. “Guys, my house is just around the corner. I’ll go ahead of you. Bye!”
I don’t know if they waved, because I literally ran back home. I guess it’s much better if I just lie and hide myself.
I’ll find opposing new ways
Though I haven’t slept in two days
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I’ll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you
I don’t feel so alone…
I don’t feel so alone…
Now I look like a zombie, or that’s what my brother says. Honestly I tried my best to move on, but it just went worse. Even at school I always go with the other seniors than hang out with Yuto, Yamada and him.
As many times as I blink I’ll think of you…
tonight…
I’ll think of you tonight…
Right now I’m in the middle of my sorrow in my room, regretting every single fight I made when we were still together. Then I heard a knock, and I heard my brother’s voice, “Daiki, someone’s here to visit you.”
“Go away,” I replied, burying my head in my pillow.
Of course they wouldn’t listen to me. The door opened and closed, I heard the footsteps going closer, and a voice of a good friend was heard, “Hey man, it’s Inoo.”
I groaned. I just went out with these guys yesterday, “What do you want?”
“You, Daiki.”
What the hell? I sat up and looked at Inoo, “You want…me. Aren’t you going out with Hikaru?”
He laughed. Great, now I’m the one who’s stupid. “You misunderstood. It’s not only me; we want the normal Daiki back. Carefree, happy, smiling…”
“I was happy then because I was with him.”
“So now that you broke up you’ll make your life miserable?”
“Don’t you know that it’s MY fault he doesn’t like me anymore?!” Pictures of an angry and teary-eyed Chinen ran in my mind. The countless times that I made him like that; poor guy.
Inoo stopped for a moment, and then began changing the topic, “Chinen talked to me earlier. He wanted to tell you that he and Yamada are not really together.”
“I know what I saw, don’t lie to me.”
He rolled his eyes. Maybe I’m too stubborn already? “Look, I tried my best here. I know Chinen tried his best too. We just want you back, Daiki.” Inoo finally said, then made his leave.
“Whatever.”
Well, there he goes. Another failed attempt to make me okay. Trust me, people, nothing will ever make me okay.
The phone just rang. Chinen’s calling.
“Hello?”
“Dai-chan, it’s Chinen. Are you free today?”
“Yeah. Why?”
“Can you go to the park? I wanna tell you something.”
“Where exactly at the park?”
“You know where it is. I don’t have to tell you,” then he hung up.
Well, whatever that was, I’d better go. His tone seems sad. No, I know he’s sad.
Part 3 is here.
Author: Fuji-chan
Rating: PG-15 (for language)
Genre: Failed romance
Words: 1,021
Pairing: DaiChii (DaikixChinen); YamaChii (Yamada x Chinen); other pairings
Disclaimer: Vanilla Twilight is a song from Owl City. And DaiChii belongs to meee *killed* [and for some fans out there. XD]
Author’s Notes: The italized words are the lyrics from the song.
WHAT?! Breaking up?!
Recently my life had some twists and turns. Chinen broke up with me, I acted like nothing’s happening, and then I saw him having fun with Yamada. First, I was broken, now I’m jealous? But we’re not even together anymore. If I talked this out with them they wouldn’t like it anyway, since this love is now one-sided.
I guess a friendly wave and smile wouldn’t hurt, “Hey Yamada, do you have free time tomorrow?”
“Sorry, can’t,” he didn’t finish his sentence, but he pointed at the small guy beside him. Of course he knows, and he doesn’t want “to break my already broken heart”. Speaking of Chinen, he lowered his hat to hide his face when I saw them. So this really proves that he doesn’t want to see me again.
Well, fine! If he’s better off without me, then I’m better off without him. no one will whine beside me, no one would slack off and sit on my lap while I’m doing my homework, and no more annoying kid who would cry when he doesn’t get what he wants.
I’ll call Hikaru. I’m going to have a fun day with the guys.
I watch the night turn light blue
But it’s not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn’t so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.
Now that he’s gone, everything goes so smoothly, but it seems that something is missing. I don’t know if it’s really a thing or a person. It can’t be, since I have everything I need. And yet there’s something in me that tells me to search for it, yet I’m always saying that I didn’t lose anything.
OH SHUT UP. I’m tired of lying already.
I can’t take him off my mind. Everything that I see or do reminds me of him. Simply having fun through other things isn’t just enough. Why would be break up so abruptly? It’s like we’re fine one minute ago and then poof! Everything was forgotten. I’m sure he’s having fun now with Yamada. Yamada is a reliable person, very nice and sweet…
”THEN I HATE YOU TOO!” I was only joking when I said that; how about now? Will I hate him just because he doesn’t like me anymore? Because I’m too annoying? Or maybe I’m staring to hate him because I’m jealous on how he can cope in a break-up and still be golly happy after it.
Earlier I saw them together going home from school. I can’t really say that I’m stalking them, because Yuto was nice enough to join me, then asked Yamada if we can tag along. This is the first day that Chinen and me are together again after our break-up, well, technically we’re together in a group. It’s pretty awkward; no one tried to speak up. The tension’s really high, and it’s the tension that we always feel every concert.
I don’t like this anymore. Because of us, even our friends get tangled up in our problem. “Guys, my house is just around the corner. I’ll go ahead of you. Bye!”
I don’t know if they waved, because I literally ran back home. I guess it’s much better if I just lie and hide myself.
I’ll find opposing new ways
Though I haven’t slept in two days
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I’ll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you
I don’t feel so alone…
I don’t feel so alone…
Now I look like a zombie, or that’s what my brother says. Honestly I tried my best to move on, but it just went worse. Even at school I always go with the other seniors than hang out with Yuto, Yamada and him.
As many times as I blink I’ll think of you…
tonight…
I’ll think of you tonight…
Right now I’m in the middle of my sorrow in my room, regretting every single fight I made when we were still together. Then I heard a knock, and I heard my brother’s voice, “Daiki, someone’s here to visit you.”
“Go away,” I replied, burying my head in my pillow.
Of course they wouldn’t listen to me. The door opened and closed, I heard the footsteps going closer, and a voice of a good friend was heard, “Hey man, it’s Inoo.”
I groaned. I just went out with these guys yesterday, “What do you want?”
“You, Daiki.”
What the hell? I sat up and looked at Inoo, “You want…me. Aren’t you going out with Hikaru?”
He laughed. Great, now I’m the one who’s stupid. “You misunderstood. It’s not only me; we want the normal Daiki back. Carefree, happy, smiling…”
“I was happy then because I was with him.”
“So now that you broke up you’ll make your life miserable?”
“Don’t you know that it’s MY fault he doesn’t like me anymore?!” Pictures of an angry and teary-eyed Chinen ran in my mind. The countless times that I made him like that; poor guy.
Inoo stopped for a moment, and then began changing the topic, “Chinen talked to me earlier. He wanted to tell you that he and Yamada are not really together.”
“I know what I saw, don’t lie to me.”
He rolled his eyes. Maybe I’m too stubborn already? “Look, I tried my best here. I know Chinen tried his best too. We just want you back, Daiki.” Inoo finally said, then made his leave.
“Whatever.”
Well, there he goes. Another failed attempt to make me okay. Trust me, people, nothing will ever make me okay.
The phone just rang. Chinen’s calling.
“Hello?”
“Dai-chan, it’s Chinen. Are you free today?”
“Yeah. Why?”
“Can you go to the park? I wanna tell you something.”
“Where exactly at the park?”
“You know where it is. I don’t have to tell you,” then he hung up.
Well, whatever that was, I’d better go. His tone seems sad. No, I know he’s sad.
Part 3 is here.