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[fuchsiascreams]

I don't know, I'm not doing that great. My mood is getting progressively lower day by day, and my anxiety is starting to get out of control. Every night as I'm laying in bed, my heart starts pounding, and my thoughts just start racing through every possibility of anything that could go wrong, ever. It fully has taken me like 2+ hours to get to

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[pikaporeon]

-hug

[drives_a_pin]

I've never dealt with cutting but i definitely had my own issues.

if i cant tell myself it's going to be ok. then usually the next emotion is annoyance and then shortly after anger.

i know these emotions don't help me but i go through them anyway.

don't be so hard on yourself. losing someone is always hard. losing a pet could be trigger of some kind. i dont know.

im also on my second glass wine and my gf is sad at me. it's kinda like her being angry at me because i told her how much i used to make and now she feels crappy because i havent been able to secure a job.

really i got side tracked here. kinda happens quite often.

anyways i know it's feel rough right now but tomorrows a new day. sleep always helps me deal.

:) <--this is me sending you good feelings. night cool person.

[drives_a_pin]

lol, i just noticed this was three days ago. anyways, hope you feel better

[parallax_view]

I'm sorry about Blue. I was devastated when my rat Claire died. I loved her so much. I'm sure Blue lived happily because of you.

I hope someday you attain your goals(med school, anxiety manageable), because you seem at first glance to be a nice person.

[fuchsiascreams]

Thank you. That really means a lot to me, honestly. How many rats do you have? Or did you have, I guess. Just the one? So you still keep them?

[parallax_view]

Two...none since. Too heartbreaking of a lifespan. I can't deal with it very well. Two cats and a cockatiel, now. Longer lifespans, but we'll see how I react in 18 years. Love them hard, like any of the people in my life.

I know you don't know me, and that it's easier said than done, but I really hope you don't continue the cutting. Best wishes.