Just another day, another memory betrayed

[frozen_soul]

So it has been one year since the death of Jeff. A year since I last cried, and strangely enough my eyes are still dry. Yes, that rhymed, but not on purpose. Went up to his grave. Left a bottle of Jack for him, polished off a bottle of Wild Trukey and one of his friends showed up with the same idea. Gray took me to his place. Chugging a fifth isn't

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[giagirl1000]

love dont invalidate yourself like that. you feel the way you do because you have every right to feel the way you do. this is probably the hardest time of year for you, don't berate yourself for feeling.
the world dissapoints me too, and i find myself asking myself the same questions....but love, just because your family may seem like it is ok, doesnt mean it is. a war-torn country, and a war-torn family may be different, but at the same time they are devestatingly similar.
you have accomplished and overcome so much. i'm proud to know you. you deserve so much more than this, and you will become a designer, a singer, and a writer. i can see it, i know it, you have the talent, you have the will, it is going to happen.
i think that this week has been hard for both of us, but mostly hard for you *hugs*

[frozen_soul]

*hugs*
You always seem to make me feel dumb for putting myself down (it's a good thing) and then I stop feeling sorry for my self and ignore my mothers and brother's comments for a while more. And I start thinnking 'I can last another day against them' and all I have to do is say that every day and eventually I wont have to deal with it at all.
- Stevie

[giagirl1000]

i love you.
the other day some guy i thought was attacking leoule said the most horrid thing to me, he said "you wouldn't be anorexic if you didn't look in the mirror" what is that supposed to mean? i've just been feeling horrid because of that lately, and then leoule deleted that post and chastised him and he didnt even acknowledge the fact that he said it....his lj name is gres02
i hate him with a passion.
i just...i feel so ugly today, and so crappy, and then i got a little miffed because in the post leoule wrote that i also had fshd, and i was like, no i don't need some asshole knowing that.....
i wish i could hang out with you. i miss you.

[frozen_soul]

fshd? huh? confusion!
The guy obviously is an asshole who only thinks of himself and doesn't seem to realize that he is a mean spirited little jerk. He should grow up a little before he comments on lj.
As for you, you are beautiful. Absolutely gorgeous. I'd jump you in an instant if you weren't dating Jacob. ^_^
- Stevie

[darkphoenix69]

I love you!!!And thank god you had some sex for both of us because the goddess knows im not getting any dick.And woohoo you smokeded again.Yes I know I spelt smoked with an extra ed.

[frozen_soul]

You are such a bad influence on me, I adore you.
- Stevie

[autumnsshadow]

sometimes we just aren't.
you should focus on yourself...for a while anyway; until you believe in yourself. it's the only way you'll be any good for helping anyone else if that's what you want to do. and what would your mother know? she probably doesn't even see you.

[frozen_soul]

Well that's the truth, she doesn't see me at all. Sometimes I wonder what type of world she lives in. A world in which everything she does is considered perfection. I dunno. Thank you *hugs*
- Stevie

[darkphoenix69]

Naw herr mum does see her.She was in the same room as her for like ever reading our dirty convo on Stephie deep throating a dick instead of making a bagel,yea funness...Oh and how my care bear sign on my tummy would be two male signs interlocked and hers would be 2 female signs wiht 1 male sign all interlocked...

[frozen_soul]

because it would all be perfect. You know kenny, we have the oddest conversations. It really is awesome.
- Stevie

[sara_of_halo]

You are not worthless... You have plenty of talents, does your mother ever read your poetry and songs? They are some of the most beautiful things I have ever read. *I'm not being sarcastic if you think I am* I'm mean, absolutely beautiful.
It's hard not to think selfishly... even I do. I think of some of the bad things that happened in my life, but then I also realize "What the heck am I even thinking?" Sometimes things just seem terrible, but it helps to think of the people that truly love you no matter what happens.
*HUGS*

[frozen_soul]

No she doesn't. Well she read two poems, she said they were depressing her and they needed work before they could be considered good. She doesn't want to read my songs.
You make me all happy and stuff whenever you talk to me. I'm glad we're friends. *hugs*
- Stevie