Just another day, another memory betrayed
So it has been one year since the death of Jeff. A year since I last cried, and strangely enough my eyes are still dry. Yes, that rhymed, but not on purpose. Went up to his grave. Left a bottle of Jack for him, polished off a bottle of Wild Trukey and one of his friends showed up with the same idea. Gray took me to his place. Chugging a fifth isn't a very good idea when you're already feeling emotional. We had sex, his brother showed up and was like 'WTF!' and we told him to go away and spent the next few hours having sex and smoking. Ruined my good run too. Well, 8 months without smoking and then a day full of it. Let's see how far I get this time.
Mum told me that I'm worthless, that my dreams will never come to light because I have no talent to speak of. I told her that as long as I didn't turn out like her I'd consider it a blessing from the Goddess.
It's funny really, life just isn't quite as happy as I wish it was. The world disappoints me sometimes and I get depressed. I suppose that's normal though. I should stop focusing on myself. I just need to keep forcing it into my head. People starving, dying, screaming, shouting. I am one of the lucky ones, I'm not in a war torn country, my family isn't starving, I have a home. So why aren't I happy?
- Stevie
Mum told me that I'm worthless, that my dreams will never come to light because I have no talent to speak of. I told her that as long as I didn't turn out like her I'd consider it a blessing from the Goddess.
It's funny really, life just isn't quite as happy as I wish it was. The world disappoints me sometimes and I get depressed. I suppose that's normal though. I should stop focusing on myself. I just need to keep forcing it into my head. People starving, dying, screaming, shouting. I am one of the lucky ones, I'm not in a war torn country, my family isn't starving, I have a home. So why aren't I happy?
- Stevie