wow, i realized in my most dumbest attempt to confine myself from friends, i have lost them all. maybe not, maybe i just think that, but for some reason i think i am correct. as some of you may know, slb kevin and i were "dating" for a short spec of time. and, being the person that i am, went and fucked it all up. wow, surprise surprise. i ( Read more... )

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Well, it's been three days since I've had a cig.  Craving one like a fiend, but supposedly that will go away in a few more days.  I keep feeling anxious, like I'm going to pop.  And when I'm not feeling like that, I feel like I want to kill someone.  I don't like this feeling.  I don't like feeling as though I am about to snap someone's head off ( Read more... )

You know, it really makes me sad that, even with a journal that you should be able to anything you want to, you can't. You can't say everything that you want to because prying eyes will take it the wrong way or see that something was up. Then rumors get started and there is nothing you can do except accept the fact that what you said inevitably ( Read more... )

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Blood red beats my dying heart
I gave up on love, tore it apart
I hate that I still want you
I hate even more that I don't have you.

Seeing your face in a constant reminder
Of happy times so much spent together
I want you gone, but there is no where you'll go
I hate that to you my love will never show

Please, just leave, let me die alone
I take ( Read more... )