i also have realized that i'm not as strong as i pretend to be. i've got this "fuck you" attitude towards the world, but in reality, i like to be liked. i seek approval just like the rest of you. its not that i need it. i know when to say fuck you and mean it, but its nice to be cared for every once and a while. itd be nice to know for once that i'm the pretty one. i'm the one people are asking about. instead i constantly find myself being "one of the guys" b/c i don't dress in mini skirts and uggs, and dye my hair blonde. or i dont slap on a pound of makeup with thick black eye-liner and crazy eyeshadow. no matter what group you put me with i'm never the "pretty one." thats not whats important in life, but its always nice to have that reassurance that you arent completely repulsive
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Ego sum Space Boy....bigbrotherMarch 7 2005, 15:50:37 UTC
well... to say you're missed over here in my own private heaven would be a mis-calculation of proper magnitude...
"We have both lost ourselves, but sometimes we reveal the most when we are least like ourselves." January, 1932 from The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Volume One 1931-1934
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"We have both lost ourselves, but sometimes we reveal the most when we are least like ourselves." January, 1932 from The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Volume One 1931-1934
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