I can't even believe this is Christmas Eve. Doesn't feel like it at all. Normally I would be bugging my family to death to open a present. I'm not opening a present tonight. Jason isn't here to fight with and make sausage balls with. *sighs* The *only* time I want him home, he can't be home ( Read more... )

Today has been a good day. Felt much better after having a talk with two people. Thanks a lot ( Read more... )

I saw the engagement ring. *tear* Maybe I am making to much of this. All I've ever wanted growing up was for him to just leave. *sighs* It's still a *far* way off, but still sad to know it's happening.

I am not letting my feelings show anymore. I am such a bad person. I freak out over nothing. I cry about everything. I get mad over anything. It's so bad. Makes me want to die so much. I hate my life. I hate the way I am. I hate that I can't be normal and have to go on fucking medication because of it. It's NOT fair. WHY ME?! Why am I so ( Read more... )

I am going to miss Jason. It's going to be a while before he leaves home, but still. I know we don't get along and we have never had any type of communication except to yell at each other. I have only felt loved by him twice in my life. He doesn't really like me. He loves me, because I am his sister and that's only because of that. He has ( Read more... )

Thursday: Got up at 6:00 that morning to get ready and go to Grassy with Geno. Sat and talked to his mom and dad, while Geno tried to get out of the bed. Then we went up there, got there, it was *SO* cold. Then we went wondering around the house and then walked up to the lake. Walked around the lake some. I, had a little mishap with Earth. ( Read more... )

I am kind of annoyed at a friend. She is being stupid and doing stupid things just for attention. It's ridiculous. It really is. I feel bad that she has to act and do stuff like that, to make herself seem "cool" or whatever.

Jess: "I like to play with myself"

Romance ( Read more... )

Jess doesn't have friends anymore. No one likes her. She is not cool. Boooo on you for being such a lamer, Jess. Damn ( Read more... )