I groaned softly as Cordelia and Wesley walked into his office. How awkward was that? He couldn't even look at me. Nice. And we're supposed to work together and he can't even stand the sight of me. Great, just great. I felt like absolute shit. I'd thought what I was doing, going to England, being with him, had been the right thing. I really thought ( Read more... )

I did it. I moved half-way across the country to go to graduate school in Los Angeles, California. It was all a little too surreal, like a walking dream, and I was sure I'd wake up at any second. But in the meantime I had to find the apartment I'd be sub-leasing from some friends of a friend. That was my top priority right now and then I'd worry ( Read more... )

I sat up and gasped, my heart pounding in my chest, and sweating a little. It was like waking up from a nightmare, a very painful nightmare. I took a couple deep breaths and my breathing slowly returned to normal. The last thing I remembered was Wesley holding me, pain...so much pain, and then nothing. I died. Then was this Heaven? It didn't look ( Read more... )

I'd been up in my room all day....ok, well all month. I hadn't really talked to anyone for about that long and I hadn't heard anyone moving around in the hallway either. Had they all left me here? Have I been all alone up here in this room while they high-tailed it out of here? I really, really hoped not, because if they were all gone, and I was up ( Read more... )

"Wesley.....!" I sat up, gasping for breath, my hand reaching out for his. Where was Wesley's hand? Then I flashed on a memory: me laying in bed, Wesley holding me, and a pain so intense my body was shaking with the effort. I hadn't opened my eyes, yet. I didn't want to know what happened to me or where I was. Maybe it had all been a dream and I ( Read more... )

I was moved beyond words by what Cordy said to me. I'd taken care of our boys. I'd never really thought about that, but I guess she was right...I had. And she was grateful to me. That made me feel like everything I'd done, or tried to do, was worth something. Cordy was proud of me and that was no small feat. I hugged her back tightly and then ( Read more... )

I sat down on the big, weird but cool, circular couch thing in the lobby and sighed. Angel was evil? I knew he could turn evil if he had a perfect moment of happiness, or at least someone told me that, but....with no body that shouldn't have been an issue. And now, the most vivid and good memory I had from my former life was out running the streets ( Read more... )

"Crud!" I slapped my hand on the notebook sitting next to the microscope and fumed. This was the fifteenth test that's failed miserably. I'd been trying for the better part of the week to find a way to corporealize Spike. Since I couldn't very well perform tests on him, not just because he had no body to test on and but because the tests might make ( Read more... )

I stayed in the bathroom longer than I'd planned, but I just couldn't go out there and face everybody. I could hear them talking and my wish hadn't just affected Faith and Spike, but Xander and Tara, too. Who knows how many countless others lost their souls because of me? Because of some stupid wish I made. I sighed and sat down on the edge of the ( Read more... )

I helped Wesley to his feet and sighed softly. Why did she, it, whatever have to be here? The Powers should have put her back in her box where she belonged. She never should have been released in the first place and she shouldn't be here now. I glared at the stairs and then took another breath to calm myself. Getting angry wasn't going to help the ( Read more... )