wickedfairytale Fred
I stayed in the bathroom longer than I'd planned, but I just couldn't go out there and face everybody. I could hear them talking and my wish hadn't just affected Faith and Spike, but Xander and Tara, too. Who knows how many countless others lost their souls because of me? Because of some stupid wish I made. I sighed and sat down on the edge of the bathtub, holding a towel against the cut on my side. I couldn't go back out there and look at all of them, face them when they knew what I'd done. I would have to eventually of course, but for right that moment, I could find some solitude in the bathroom.
I let the tears fall that had been threatening to fall ever since Faith began torturing me. She was my best friend and I'd done this to her. She was dead on the inside, cold and hollow now because of me. And everyone out in the living room was hurting, with the exception of Spike...although if you asked him I'm sure he'd say he was hurting, too, the wimp. But Mr. Wyndam-Pryce and Angel....because of me.
I wiped my face and grimaced at the cut on my cheek. The look in Faith's eyes cut me to the bone...because of a stupid wish I'd made....I'm...
I cut my thought process off and frowned. Listen to me! I sounded so annoying. Yes, what was happening was terrible and yes I did cause it initially, but now it has nothing to do with me. But where am I sitting? In the bathroom crying like a little girl, instead of out there trying to fix my best friend. I needed to get over myself and realize this situation isn't about me anymore, it's about Faith and Xander and Tara and I had to help make it right again.
I'd stopped bleeding, so I cleaned up a little and walked out into the living room. I stood in front of everyone, took a deep breath and said, "I know an apology for causing everything to happen would just fall on deaf ears, so I'm only going to say one thing. I can't change what happened. I'm sorry for it, but it's in the past. Now, you can call hate me if you want, I wouldn't fault y'all for it. But I want to help save my friends. I'm smarter than the average girl and that'll come in handy." I looked at them, "So, where can I start and what can I do?"
I let the tears fall that had been threatening to fall ever since Faith began torturing me. She was my best friend and I'd done this to her. She was dead on the inside, cold and hollow now because of me. And everyone out in the living room was hurting, with the exception of Spike...although if you asked him I'm sure he'd say he was hurting, too, the wimp. But Mr. Wyndam-Pryce and Angel....because of me.
I wiped my face and grimaced at the cut on my cheek. The look in Faith's eyes cut me to the bone...because of a stupid wish I'd made....I'm...
I cut my thought process off and frowned. Listen to me! I sounded so annoying. Yes, what was happening was terrible and yes I did cause it initially, but now it has nothing to do with me. But where am I sitting? In the bathroom crying like a little girl, instead of out there trying to fix my best friend. I needed to get over myself and realize this situation isn't about me anymore, it's about Faith and Xander and Tara and I had to help make it right again.
I'd stopped bleeding, so I cleaned up a little and walked out into the living room. I stood in front of everyone, took a deep breath and said, "I know an apology for causing everything to happen would just fall on deaf ears, so I'm only going to say one thing. I can't change what happened. I'm sorry for it, but it's in the past. Now, you can call hate me if you want, I wouldn't fault y'all for it. But I want to help save my friends. I'm smarter than the average girl and that'll come in handy." I looked at them, "So, where can I start and what can I do?"