I can feel it. Certain things are starting to set me off, others I'm just done with and don't miss at all. I'm still curious as to which direction I'm being pulled, but I'm going to allow it because it's time. I'm watching for the signs, noting when there is synchronicity and letting that be the lead. It's spring and it's time for change and growth ( Read more... )

I'm walking away from things and walking towards others. Every time I open Facebook I sit and wonder why I'm even there. I scroll through half of it, comment and like few and in-between and noticing that I make a decision based on whether or not it's an open post and whether or not it's something I mind the search engines knowing. I don't mind, I ( Read more... )

Sitting in the room, listening to Led Zeppelin (Pastry got the recent offerings) and reading the remainder of The Upanishads that I haven't finished. The further realization that I've fallen further from the spirituality tree. But I'm turning around. The original thought was to see about spending a week up at the Monastery for a time of silent ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is the first of "big days" in my treatment. The teeth come out. The positive is that they're crowded already so it won't be much of a gap. I'm already talking funny because I have too much stuff in my mouth. But that's ok. I'm dealing ( Read more... )

You're feeling an intense sense of healing emanating from somewhere deep -- so deep that you may not even realize where it's coming from. Try not to worry about it too much, as it's strictly positive.I ended up with a day off, so far. So with all stress I've been under with the paranoid watching of my car out the window, and randomly hitting the ( Read more... )

I want to write more, and they always say to just write. So...plan is to write something here every day, even if it's overwhelmingly mundane. Some of you may not see it, because sometimes I like to limit it to friends, but I promise the public entires aren't always going to be posts worthy of 140 characters or less ( Read more... )

I wanted to make a list of habits I've developed or red flags that set off personal alarms because of situations I've been in with, or because of, men. So here we go ( Read more... )

I went to the mountains and surrounded myself with women. Strange for me, I know. But it was actually a good thing. I've been thinking about my hip and shoulder issues over the last couple of days and I can't remember if my therapist attributed the right-side issues with my lack of femininity or with my over-usual masculinity. But the thing that ( Read more... )

In an attempt to start accessing those wonderful artistic aspects of my being, I've started reading through my daily meditation books. The one that struck the chord today was from Caitlin Matthews, the question was, What, for you, are the gifts of being human?I think one of the main ones, that I think is more specific to humans, is the ability to ( Read more... )

I'm finding that I'm getting more and more pissed off. In talking with my mum, it dawned on me that my irritation has been with the small courtesies that used to be common, but are not so common...even in a laid back atmosphere such as the one I strive to create around me. For the most part, I run on the "what works for everyone" time. In my ( Read more... )