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i'm in the bay area. my trip to italy was canceled and i am relieved. i wanted to go to italy, but i need to be close to my mother ( Read more... )

alrite. i'm exposing myself a little bit. i have nothing to hide. go to www.labanpheidias.com to see photos i took of laban and there is even a photo of me there too. all the black and white photos are photos i took. i tried uploading a new photo in which you can ctually see my face but it was too big. oh well. if you are really curious you can see ( Read more... )

my mother's body is dying. and i love her. she is my dying heart. o mother ( Read more... )

" 'come on up,' she called. 'i'm making hot chocolate.' so i went up and there she was, the girl with the pure and innocent dear eyes that i had always searched for and for so long. we agreed to love each other madly ( Read more... )

"All the same, the light gave my lovely images, negatives, of our encouters. I likened you to beings whose variety was the only justification for the name, always the same, yours, that I wanted to call them by, beings that I transformed as I transformed you, in full light, as you transform the water of a spring by taking it in a glass, as you ( Read more... )

the other nite we watched fight fire with fire. he fell asleep before it was over. and when it was over i lay there for 3 hours or so in the same position, no movement. his sliding door was open to the balcony which gives an amazing view of downtown los angeles. i couldn't see downtown though, all i could see was 2 stars in the black sky. and i ( Read more... )

so we went to a screening last nite of the good thief. it was so good. so good. we might be going to santa cruz for the weekend i hope. am hopeful/ing ( Read more... )

she is my tender sweet and her little feet are stretched out well which is a treat and very lovely ( Read more... )

i know i am not perfect.
but i know i am damn special.

thank you for reminding me that people are never who we think they are.

the show tonite was beautiful. and his nod was disgusting. and i thought of the other him.