Why...

[fourthduckling]

Why do I do this to myself? I'm sitting here... upset because of something that happened that's beyond my control. And it's upset me many times before. Why do I put myself through it? I honestly don't know. No, I do. But it's like... a circle. And I'm not making any sense except to myself, but that's okay

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[chibimaryn]

Oh Deby...I don't know what triggered this, but I'm sorry you're suffering right now. Whenever I get a day off (probably in August).. We should make plans to hang out, watch movies, eat ice cream.. just have an overall good time. I can at least try to cheer you up *^_^

I hate how thoughtless people are, too. They walk all over you, are rude, they...damage your car and won't leave a number(grrr..bastards)... I told my father the other night that I'm just sick of people in general. Don't let it get you down, though.. some people don't think sometimes. Granted, I don't know what happened in your case, either.. but..

Anyway, much love to ya, dearie. I hope you can pull out of this soon. I hate knowing you're upset. =(

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[teardrop_scar]

I'm sorry I can't be there to help you or listen to you face to face. I can't make your problems go away for a few minutes while I bitch about something that's wrong with me. Remember those good ol' days? I miss you and I hope you feel better. I still love you and you can call me anytime you feel like it. If I don't hear from you i'll call you soon, when I get back from Savannah.

Not alone in your circular world.

[anonymous]

Hey sweetie

[i_heart_qe2]

you do it because you’re human : ) it’s all part of the process. you might become "harder" or less prone to anxiety about these things as you get older but i think i know you enough to know better... but i wouldn’t consider it a flaw in character-- its more a product of being a hopeless idealist.. which can be a beautiful thing. remember, they are (the idealists) often the ones who do good even when they know they don’t have to but often enough they do it in the background, likely because they wouldnt have it any other way. the unfortunate thing about always being the sweetheart, is that sometimes people think you might let it slide if they hurt you..

anyway, know that you are loved and there are people who would drop everything to be there, if you are in need.. even if you are not. hang in there.

love, j bear