Why...
Why do I do this to myself? I'm sitting here... upset because of something that happened that's beyond my control. And it's upset me many times before. Why do I put myself through it? I honestly don't know. No, I do. But it's like... a circle. And I'm not making any sense except to myself, but that's okay
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It's Erin. What's gotcha so down? You know you can always talk to me. I may not be your first choice, but I know how you feel. I too am a clam. I think I'm a closet introvert ^_~ I don't let too many people in either. I've been hurt before and it sucks. *huggles debbs chan* You do it to yourself b/c you believe in your mind that you'll hurt less if you shut out the world. B/c then no one can reject you or hurt you, unfortunatley it means that you can't heal the wounds you've already suffered. You can ignore them and pretend they don't exist, but they'll be there to slap you across the face the moment you let your guard down. And it stings like the first time it happened... and this is me rambling ^_^; I dun know if I make sense to you, but it makes sense to me. I guess we're just afraid our broken wings haven't mended and that when we fall, the next time we won't be able to get up. We'll just die. It takes a strong person to open people like us back up, and it takes us being even stronger to allow that person in close where they can do the most damage. Don't give up, your wings will mend, and you will fly again. I hope I'm a witness to that day. I also hope you find a person you can open up to and trust, who won't hurt you, just support you in all the ways you need. Feel better sweets, your too nice to stay down for too long.
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