Comments | fountainhead687: cant sleep

fountainhead687

cant sleep

Apr 18, 2005 02:37

I cant sleep and I've been trying for a few hours now. I feel a little sick to my stomach. at times like these I feel like there has got to be something... somewhere... I dont know. like there has got to be something that is the ultimate knower of all morals. I mean, how much easier would that be, if I could just ask the knower of all morals... how ( Read more... )

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osian April 18 2005, 09:27:23 UTC

Monnie, from your story on the phone, i dont feel like you should take or get all the blame. i mean yes you were responsible for watching out for the recruit. but so were other people, its just that you had a "more" personal one because she was staying with you. its also wierd, because you should feel guilty, but you should also feel accomplished or something, in a way, because you, after realizing everthing that was going wrong, you stepped up and started handling things when others werent. so you werent right, and you werent wrong. you were grey, you were right and wrong.

on a side note, i rather like your usage of new vocabulary.

fountainhead687 April 18 2005, 17:37:42 UTC

haha. on lj, we dont actually name the things that we're tlaking about, we just leave it a mystery, remember? also, what vocabulary? culpable? I have loved that word for a long time and never gotten the change to use it until last night.

osian April 18 2005, 19:25:56 UTC

really? i have never heard you use that word before. And Shirked? I have never heard that word before in my life. i was just complimenting you.

and yes i do....member. haha

monnie kylemazoo April 18 2005, 15:47:53 UTC

I think the situation is unbelivably hard. but the fact is that you do not deserve the blame you are putting on yourself. and i dont thinnk anyone other than megan is putting it on you. to be quite honest there are like thirty people on the team. i dont know how many people were there but evberyone at that party is responsible in an equal amount. that is the point of going with other people to parties so everyone can watch out for you. and we all did a pisspoor job of it that night. But really just because she was staying with you doesnt mean you should get more blame or even have more responsibility for her at the party. sure you were responsible for making sure she was at your room when the night ended but beyond that we all deserve some blame for it. and really she deserves alot of the blame as well. i know that we are going to get into trouble because of this but i truely believe that each person should be held responsible for their own actions and allison got herself into a bad position. anyways. i want to talk to you about this ( ... )

thepoolrat12 April 18 2005, 19:25:18 UTC

uh, megan isn't putting the blame on you... she told me. maybe i don't have any say in this because i wasn't there... but don't be mad at megan. she was upset with the situation, not you.

This is Megan Johnson anonymous April 22 2005, 18:04:47 UTC

Monika, if you have a problem with anything I have done, I would appreciate it if you could please talk to me about it as opposed to other people. I have been really hurt by what people have been saying and I feel like my words have been completely twisted around. Thank you.