I went to E's house last night.
I had the car and the time and said "Fuck it, why not?"
So I knocked on his door and his Dad answered and I went in his room and I swear, it was exactly the same. A year had gone by and the only thing that had changed was that we were fatter. It was nice, though. He is trying to stay away from weed and wants to be an ( Read more... )

I don't know where home is anymore.

Just for anyone who cares:

moving back to oceanside.

It smells like dog shit in my house.
Dogs are retarded, that's all I can say.
Cute, but retarded.

Forgetful summers and falls and winters and springs
all of the seasons melting
swirling like paint down the drain
It's just a memory now
when you and I lay intertwined
in sheets that were never washed
in a yellow room with high ceilings
and a sleepy cat who rolled and lolled
with the rhythm of our bodies
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sometimes i hate birthdays.
i mean, i love birthdays
i just hate the disappointment i always feel when no one shows up.

update: thanks alex and cayla for coming

I'm so confused. People hate me, they like me, they misunderstood me, they call me, they don't leave messages, they skip out on rent, leave their trash on the table, talk in class, they want to love me, they don't like me "like that", there is a full moon, the quad is taped off, he fences, he smiles, he makes me feel like I'm floating, I want to ( Read more... )

blankets give me such comfort.
they remind me winters in big bear as a child.
layers and layers of love.

Happy New Year folks.

"so this is the new year...and I don't feel any different"

resolution: to pass all my classes and find a steady job.
none of that frivolous bullshit.

the sky is falling.


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i have been obsessed with the format this week and today i realized that most of the songs are about breaking up.

IRONY!

i'm a time bomb, baby.