I miss him!!!

He saw me cry... three times in my life i have felt close and trusting enough to cry in someone's arms- 3 times!!!... I cried last night. The strange thing is, i said, "I'm going to freak out..." He hugged me, and i broke. I feel so... weak, and so... broken! Shawn loves me so much, the amount of love he pours out is enough to cause tears to rest ( Read more... )

I woke up on the verge of tears this morning- my head was pounding, i couldn't breathe, i didnt get enough sleep, and worst of all- my dream! Tash had a dream the other day that when she awoke still had a lasting impact on her. I have had these dreams few times in my life, but last night- just the last scene before i woke has left me in a blunder ( Read more... )

I will have an empty room, Tash leaves in 6 days ( Read more... )

Well, i have been lying in bed for 3 1/2 hours now... i cannot bring myself to do anything productive... i did some work this morning in preparation for exams and stuff, i've been trying to keep ahead of the game, but being the last day of classes and all, i have just been lying here, listening to the same song on repeat, staring at well nothing ( ( Read more... )

So, in a life where everything seems possibly redundant to the point of being able to wake without an alarm, go to class without consulting a schedual, seeing people so much that faces are replacing names, and note taking is involuntary, and you can write what the prof says without thinking of it- all can be shaken up by the tug of reality. So soon ( Read more... )

I'm gonna be an "AUNTIE"!!!
Alisha's pregnant...WOW!

I'm actually a little scared now, and over the things that perhaps fear should not reside from. If fear was manifested from my under confidence in my success with finals, then that would be comprehensible, but think of the things that i fear of most... I am going to miss a lot of what i have adapted myself to here. I mean, the people, the place, ( Read more... )

I didnt think that Religion was supposed to hurt people!!! HELP ( Read more... )

Why is it that the world can spin in the same rotational axis everday- living the same duration of time year after year, and yet, as humans we- living in this tedious routine are offered changed, and challenges that the world in itself would never encounter because it sees the same thing every day. So societ changes, so countries, landscapes, ( Read more... )