all the things i could right right now, unfortunately should not be plubic...

therefore, i shall write on real paper and no one will ever know.

take that. bitches

so angry. so frusterated. :://today sucks, last night sucked harder.
goddamm im so mad at so many things.

mostly myself__mostly my life

my grandma died today. :: im in my apartment when my dad comes home. hes on the phone. its my uncle dale from oregon telling my dad that their mom just died 15 mins ago. my grandma. she would be 95 on dec 29. what hte fuck dude thats so old. i cen teven fucking think right now, cuz...see.. i have a cold. and i hate cold med. cuz it reminds me of ( Read more... )

im in payson and i love lizz. fuck matt for hurting her. i told her id kill him if he ever hurt her and i fucking will. i have no idea where the (jim-like) bastard is, but ill find him, i swear. i'lll make him cry for all the times he made my lloyd sad. fuck him

happier....

it snowed all day yesterday and still is. i got to drive in it and it ( Read more... )

Take the quiz: "Your Drug Personality..."

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as the sky

above me fills

with a blood stained

red, i close my

eyes & still see.

i run through

dreams i do not

have ... or maybe

they just aren't

mine. i've lost my

way again, with

help from no one,

yet everyone knows

where i am. "can't

escape" and "all alone"

should not sit side by

side. the hands of

time warn me now,

"soon he will awake!"
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i will be the wrath that saves my friend///////
///i hope she cries
.......i hope she screams her pain. and i will record it and play it back to her before i take her worthless life

i am depressed and this sucks. i cant seem to smile ever and i hate so many people and things and places and everything. and I MISS LIZZ. i wish i could just drive over to her old house (like i did yesterday) and see her whenever i want, like it used to be. it used to be L2(<-- L squared) every fucking day and thats the way i liked it. its not fair ( Read more... )

my dads house (that i currently live at) finally sold. hearing this seemed to lift some weight of his heavy shoulders. and we already found an apartment. right off the 51 and northern. i cant wait. that will be so much closer to everyone i love...except lizz who still remains too far from me ( Read more... )

lizz came down to see us and im really glad she did. i miss her so much when i dont get to see her. its not fair that i have to wait weeks to see my best friend.
when she was here i remembered that i love nothing more that driving around in betty, smoking pot and cigarettes, and listning to great music with her. i love you lizz