I've decided to do this at a time that I'm not feeling down.

Yes, I haven't exactly had the easiest time over here and sometimes being alone in a single room may not be the best way to maintain my emotional well-being. I look back - with all the wisdom of hindsight - at all the big talk before I left, about how I couldn't wait to leave the ( Read more... )

After waiting, applying, waiting, more applying, preparing and packing, I'm finally here - just one day to departure.

Yet I'm strangely speechless. I used to imagine myself writing a long and possibly overly maudlin post at around this time, but the emotions in me are too complex, the people I want to speak to/thank just too many. Plus all the ( Read more... )

It's really the nights, I think, when I start to dwell.

Bumped into a really, really old friend at dinner last night; the sort of people whom I had been really close to in my (much) younger days but have rather sadly been reduced to somewhat awkward acquaintances. Still, we started off having something in common:

"..so when are you returning to ( Read more... )

With a short and simple email to the administrator of the Humanities Department, I got offered my 2nd choice instead of my 3rd choice elective as previously allocated. And I wasn't even really requesting for a change.

So now, I'm a part time Philosophy student. Something to look forward to, I guess?

 AURUM, INFUSCATUM ET OBSCURUM,
CANENS NOCTIS, CANENS MORTIS,
ACQUIESCENS CANENDO…

ET ANGELUM SOMNIT AURORARUM ET BELLORUM,
SAECULORUM AURORUM FUNDIT LACRIMAS,
LACRIMAS RERUM BELLORUM.

O ARMA!
O LAMINA AURATA!
GESTU GRAVES NIMIUM,
GRAVES NIMIUM VOLATU.

AURUM, INFUSCATUM ET TORPIDUM
SUSCITA!
DILABERE EX ARMIS IN ALAM!
VOLEMUS ITERUM, ALTE SUPRA ( Read more... )

At times I appreciate that I still have time to settle my things before I leave for London, but mostly I just can't wait to actually leave. I know what I'm leaving behind, it's just ...about damn time I got a move on. I've wanted to study overseas since I was in secondary school, that makes like 8 years of working towards a goal that's finally ( Read more... )

I never had much patience with Cormac McCarthy's style - the lack of paragraph structure, quotation marks and sometimes even apostrophes. Maybe because I read No Country for Old Men and Child of God at times when I wasn't really concentrating, because I really didn't "get into" those stories. This time though, I thought I'd try again, in the ( Read more... )

I can recognise her face by now. I can remember seeing those sunken eyes, once beautiful. I can picture the sharp contours of her gaunt face with my eyes closed. I can imagine the clammy touch of her bony fingers.

But I can't know the thoughts in her head.

Inexplicably, I'm drawn into her world again, forced to watch as she walks along this beach, ( Read more... )

 My problem, it seems, is inertia; A total, debilitating, complete lack of meaningful movement.
Save me from what I want
And I'm afraid.

I used to be a little.. francophilic? But somehow after my European adventure I've grown to be more interested in German language and culture. Anyway ever since I've been bumming around at home I've been looking for foreign films to download and I did manage a few. How? Well, here's how (and don't laugh)

1. Take the most awesome film of last year ( ( Read more... )