I have the best friends in the entire world. I don't know how I got this lucky. The only thing I'm worried about is what I might be losing. I know I'm losing things...people...every day, all the time. Sometimes, it just...physically hurts me to think about it.
I went shopping today and got a ton of stuff - got some present shopping done.
Elf is the cutest movie ever. "Do you want to go eat food?" It's hilarious.
i worry too much. about everything. and i need to stop. i can't fix everyone's problems. i can't be a superhero. bah. i wish i were.
i'm losing him. i had my chance a couple years ago to be with him. and i pushed it away. now, i know how i feel... but what if he has moved on? i don't know what to do. damn it.
my family [including parents] hate me, and constantly remind me what the hell is wrong with me and how much they dislike me.
my supposed[sp?] friends treat me like crap when I treat them like the best friends in the whole world. Also whenever I even like a guy a little bit, they tell me he's too good for me, I will never get him, etc.
everyone thinks they've got me figured out, but in reality they know nothing about me. the only place I can truly be myself without being judged is online, and I have such good friends online. Sometimes I wish I could live with them instead of here.
I have so many health problems it drives me insane. Asthma,heart conditions, insomnia, I forgot what it's called but it's when you constantly faint / pass out, diabetes, irregular heart beat, you name it- I have it.
Health problems is the big one. Asthma, and insomina is the big ones for me. It truely sucks cause you literally feel like your going to die, and when you don't, you want to die.
Moving on isn't as easy as it sounds. More than anything I wish I was back a year ago when everything seemed to be going right. My friends have all changed and I have changed, but we all seem to be going in different directions. I'm lonely and my shyness doesn't help in making new friends. I tell myself that I just have to wait it out like last time and new people will come into my life. How long am I going to have to wait? How long am I going to have to be lonely?
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I went shopping today and got a ton of stuff - got some present shopping done.
Elf is the cutest movie ever. "Do you want to go eat food?" It's hilarious.
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absolutely darling.
i worry too much.
about everything.
and i need to stop.
i can't fix everyone's problems.
i can't be a superhero.
bah.
i wish i were.
i'm losing him.
i had my chance a couple years ago to be with him.
and i pushed it away.
now,
i know how i feel...
but what if he has moved on?
i don't know what to do.
damn it.
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and constantly remind me what the
hell is wrong with me and how much
they dislike me.
my supposed[sp?] friends treat me
like crap when I treat them like the
best friends in the whole world. Also
whenever I even like a guy a little bit,
they tell me he's too good for me, I
will never get him, etc.
everyone thinks they've got me figured out,
but in reality they know nothing about me.
the only place I can truly be myself without
being judged is online, and I have such good
friends online. Sometimes I wish I could live with
them instead of here.
I have so many health problems it drives me
insane. Asthma,heart conditions, insomnia,
I forgot what it's called but it's when you constantly
faint / pass out, diabetes, irregular heart beat,
you name it- I have it.
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