I really like you. Your a great friend and I enjoy being your friend in return.
I think I'm afraid to love people. I can't wrap my mind around the concept of love or what it feels like or what it is. My worst fear is that I will end up alone, for the rest of my life. Everytime I try to love my parents or my siblings or anyone, I can't let myself do it. I don't think I can even say I love my Mother or my Father. What is wrong with me? On some level, I think I even hate my parents. Maybe it is just the adolescent, rebellion, angst thing, but I don't know for sure. Sometimes I can't stand being in the same room as then, and just leave my house for hours to get away.
I really like this guy. But if he had feelings for me as well, I don't think I would act on it. The thought of committing to something, even something as silly and semi-meanigless as a high school romance, is terrifying and foreign to me. I just want to have the pleasure to concentrate some energy and thoughts on someone who I care for, but the idea of having a boyfriend is kinda unwanted to me. Again, what is wrong with me? Shouldn't most teenaged girls go crazy over the prospect of a boyfriend?
I think I'm afraid to love people. I can't wrap my mind around the concept of love or what it feels like or what it is. My worst fear is that I will end up alone, for the rest of my life. Everytime I try to love my parents or my siblings or anyone, I can't let myself do it. I don't think I can even say I love my Mother or my Father. What is wrong with me? On some level, I think I even hate my parents. Maybe it is just the adolescent, rebellion, angst thing, but I don't know for sure. Sometimes I can't stand being in the same room as then, and just leave my house for hours to get away.
I really like this guy. But if he had feelings for me as well, I don't think I would act on it. The thought of committing to something, even something as silly and semi-meanigless as a high school romance, is terrifying and foreign to me. I just want to have the pleasure to concentrate some energy and thoughts on someone who I care for, but the idea of having a boyfriend is kinda unwanted to me. Again, what is wrong with me? Shouldn't most teenaged girls go crazy over the prospect of a boyfriend?
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