im scared

I need to protect myself
and build my defenses
against people that I should not care about.

[i'm not worried though, because i know that i'll come out with wings in the end]

"I found an old suitcase in my grandmother's basement, two weeks ago. It was grey and dusty, and it had my grandfather's initials. My initials. I pulled it out into the center of the room and set it down. I pulled hard at the old zipper, which went all the way around, and when I flipped open the top there was a ladder leading down into the floor. ( Read more... )

Stress.

But Harry Potter.

But stress.

I'm just going to go to bed...

[such a bad idea]

I was just flipping through his notebook from school, and during class he scribbles my name in the margines next to little hearts.

And that, my friend, is love.

Head huuuuuuuurts.

Tummy huuuuuuuurts.

Blegh.

To leave or not to leave?

I'm sick of spending my days off in bed.

I just...can't...stop.

I am a pathetic, girly mess.

And I blush all of the time.

And smile all the time.

And dance around singing Cinderella songs. Out loud.

Sigh.

*sings*

So this is love?

I had a very good day. Justin and I had beach and movie time with Nickee and Nick. The beach was perfect, except for the jellyfish. It's okay though, because Justin and Nick simply scooped them up and flung them ( Read more... )

I love it when he makes that face. It's so silly.

I had so much fun last night with Gene and Jesse. It was refreshing. Dennys at 3 am is always fun.

Justin and I went to the zoo today. A white tiger kitty came up to the glass and was inches from my face. He had pretty blue eyes. Career change, anyone? Haha ( Read more... )

Can be confusing.

Happy,
then sad.

Convinced,
then confused.

Sleep used to be my escape.
Now I'm not sure what's worse.