Wow, I love my horse. He was so great today. He cantered better then i thought he would. He was on the wrong lead for a bit, but it was nothing to bad. he did spook pretty bad, but i stayed on so its all good. and he recovered quickly. he's not as strong as i thought he would be. i was expecting to be pulled out of the saddle when we were loping, ( Read more... )

One second we're fine, the next we're arguing, the nwe're fine again. It doesnt bother me anymore ucase im so damn used to it, but it is stil a pain...but whatever ( Read more... )

I'm scared...I'm so fucking scared. I'm mere inches from fighting with kate yet again...when what i really would like is for her to just listen to me. She says im a stranger...well i dont know who the fuck i am! i look in the mirror and i dont recognize the person staring back at me. im changing and i cant help it. im scared dude...im just fucking ( Read more... )

Can we say stressed? I was so sick at work tonight, I thought I was going to faint. I somehow made it through the night without asking to go home, thank god. Ive still got a splitting headache...I'm going to drink some hot chocolate and see if that works...casue chocolate heals everything, haha. theater is stressful beyond stressful. i was running ( Read more... )

Well, I had a big reality check tonight. I was over kates house and all these feelings i thought i had buried resurfaced themself. how could i be so damn stupid...im going to fuck my heart up so bad with this whole thing. i am forcing myself to get over her...like just about physically forcing myself...im not going to run away from john just cause ( Read more... )

Wellp, John and I are going back out. I'm so fucking happy. I think I stopped breathing when he asked. its odd cuase ive been thinking about asking him back out alot latley...of course i never told anyone, so this may be a bit of a shock for a few people..but hey, its all good. hes such a sweet fucking kid too...so yea...maby i can stay in a ( Read more... )

Last night was really awesome. Kate, emma, and I slept over coleys. i wasnt having fun for a while but then kate and i got to sleep in a different room then the other too...and we just layed there for an hour in each others arms...we were sleeping so close...i dont think ive been that relaxed in a long time. i finally slept too. it felt like the ( Read more... )

well now...it was confirmed that ive got a concusian. that was fun. i thought i was going to pass out. i was like shaking all through math cause it hurt so bad. but yea...i got to skip gym so i hung out int he library. that was fun. then psych class was fun. heather made me laugh so hard. i was having a rough time cuase i told her about all the fun ( Read more... )

lets play the fun game of "who's the song for ( Read more... )

Could I be in any more of a bad mood? I love waking up feeling like Im about to blow up in someone's face. Joy. School's going to suck. I never studied last night...fucking aye. i think i got a concusion though...i spashed my head against the wall at the barn accidently trying to untangle the dog and hse was pulling on me...it still hurts. and i ( Read more... )