Oh, pouty. Look at that lip. Gonna get it. Gonna get it.
I'm having one of those phases where I'm feeing the loss of Buffy and Angel like an ache. I miss the characters fiercely, and yet I keep not re-watching my DVDs because... I don't really know why I'm so reluctant except that I know how it all ends and all of the pain they go through in canon. I guess I want to visit these people I love (on screen, not just in fic) without watching them get tortured. Maybe I could do a selective viewing... Yeah, that won't work. Too many of the best episodes put them all through the wringer. I can't skip around.
It's not that I don't love the shiny new fandoms I'm playing in (OMG I do!), but I think because of the intensity of the arcs of Buffy and Angel they're lodged deeper in my heart. They're more part of me. Maybe that's normal for first fandoms. Maybe you fall hardest for your first. Still, the Jossverse is so complicated and so satisfying to me I'm not sure I'll ever have a fandom love as deep and true. It's not just that I think the characters are fun to play with, though they are, but I love the whole structure of the shows. I love the way the characters grow and change as individuals and as groups. I love (and hate) that they don't all have happy endings and don't reset at the end of every show. I love that they're individuals in how they talk and act and yet can all come together as heroes.
I think the character arcs are part of what make me pine for the shows as shows. I've read thousands of fanfics in the Jossverse, have written over a hundred, myself, and was a part of a virtual season 6 of Angel (ats_nolimits, which I swear gave me PTSD but was well worth it!), and yet I don't feel like I've read the definitive story for them. Joss left me wanting more, and I haven't found it yet. I keep wanting to read every possibility for them, like if I read enough I'll find the one that's my new canon. (Er, no, the comics aren't doing that for me. Sorry. It's just not my medium.) I've found lots of stories that I like set all throughout canon, and yet I still am wanting more. Maybe I always will.
Please tell me it isn't just me who still misses the Jossverse. I'm picking up new fandoms as much as anybody, even if WG and I write Jossverse nearly every day and even if every time I think about writing fic Jossverse characters are who pop up first, so I know that some of you who have moved on still have that love burning in your hearts. I hope so, anyway. Some of you must want to see Angel walk down the alley with a swirl of his coat, Wes flip through his books, and Buffy kick demon ass in very inappropriate shoes. Some of you must miss watching hearts get broken, resolve faces get used, and the love for each other that was beneath it all. Some of you must miss cursing Joss and churning out fic each week to counteract some of the torture that damn man liked to serve. Some of you must miss those Big Damn Heroes, the lot of them.
I do. God, I still do.
It's not that I don't love the shiny new fandoms I'm playing in (OMG I do!), but I think because of the intensity of the arcs of Buffy and Angel they're lodged deeper in my heart. They're more part of me. Maybe that's normal for first fandoms. Maybe you fall hardest for your first. Still, the Jossverse is so complicated and so satisfying to me I'm not sure I'll ever have a fandom love as deep and true. It's not just that I think the characters are fun to play with, though they are, but I love the whole structure of the shows. I love the way the characters grow and change as individuals and as groups. I love (and hate) that they don't all have happy endings and don't reset at the end of every show. I love that they're individuals in how they talk and act and yet can all come together as heroes.
I think the character arcs are part of what make me pine for the shows as shows. I've read thousands of fanfics in the Jossverse, have written over a hundred, myself, and was a part of a virtual season 6 of Angel (ats_nolimits, which I swear gave me PTSD but was well worth it!), and yet I don't feel like I've read the definitive story for them. Joss left me wanting more, and I haven't found it yet. I keep wanting to read every possibility for them, like if I read enough I'll find the one that's my new canon. (Er, no, the comics aren't doing that for me. Sorry. It's just not my medium.) I've found lots of stories that I like set all throughout canon, and yet I still am wanting more. Maybe I always will.
Please tell me it isn't just me who still misses the Jossverse. I'm picking up new fandoms as much as anybody, even if WG and I write Jossverse nearly every day and even if every time I think about writing fic Jossverse characters are who pop up first, so I know that some of you who have moved on still have that love burning in your hearts. I hope so, anyway. Some of you must want to see Angel walk down the alley with a swirl of his coat, Wes flip through his books, and Buffy kick demon ass in very inappropriate shoes. Some of you must miss watching hearts get broken, resolve faces get used, and the love for each other that was beneath it all. Some of you must miss cursing Joss and churning out fic each week to counteract some of the torture that damn man liked to serve. Some of you must miss those Big Damn Heroes, the lot of them.
I do. God, I still do.