[multi chapter fic] Crazy Love Chapter 6
Oh my effing geez!! When I set out to type this chapter this morning, it was going to be a simple but heart wrenching little chapter. During the typing process all that changed!!! Well it's still a little heart wrenching but it's not as little as it was and it changed a whole hell of a lot!!! I was really not looking forward to typing this one out since this is it guys. This is one of the chapters we've all been waiting for, the one we knew was going to have to happen. In order to find out what I'm talking about just read ahead..... and try not to kill me okay?
Title: Crazy Love
Author: fireside_story
Chapter: 6/?
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 3, 051
Genre: Angst
Disclaimer: I do not have any connections to KAT-TUN or any of the members past or present. I write this story for my own pleasure and make no profit from it.
Pairings: KameDa, KoKame, JunDa, Jinda (-ish), DenDen, mentions of past Akame. Basically it's a giant KAT-TUN orgy!! Well not quite.......
Summary: Ueda has been secretly in love with Kame for years but has been sleeping with Junno to try and forget about the younger man. Kame is still trying to mend his broken heart from when Jin left and is content with his relationship with Koki, that is until he starts working on a song with a certain piano man. As their relationship blossoms will Koki and Junno graciously step aside? And how will their new love handle the return of Jin into their lives.
Warnings: sexual dreams, mild language
Beta'd: nope. Like always I post first and beta second, don't ask me why.
Chapter 6
It was the simple things in life that Junno was truly grateful for, one of those things was watching his lover sleep. It wasn't something he got to do very often, only when he stayed over at Ueda's apartment, so he always made sure to take every opportunity when it came. Junno smiled fondly as he watched the sleeping man before placing a light kiss on his forehead and carefully slipped out of bed. He padded into the hallway and to the kitchen without needing to turn on a single light, he knew this apartment almost as well as he knew his own.
Reaching into the cupboard, he took a glass and filled it up with water from the tap. Ueda had pounced on him pretty much from the moment Junno had walked into his door. For hours after Ueda had demanded every ounce of his energy, ready for another round of sex minutes after the last. It has been years since Junno had found Ueda so horny but he wasn't going to complain, it was better then waking up to find the bed empty beside him in the morning. Lifting the glass to his lips, Junno heard a faint noise and felt something furry and soft rub against his ankles. Even before he looked down he knew it was one of Ueda's cats demanding attention in the form of something edible. Someone was awake and moving, therefore in the cat's mind it was time to be fed. Opening a different cupboard, Junno pulled out an envelope of cat treats. He knew it was too early to feed the animal properly, but he also didn't want the cat howling at the bedroom door and waking Ueda up. Walking to the cat dishes, Junno poured a few treats into both of them. He knew the other cat was hiding somewhere, he didn't feel right giving treats to one and not the other. Of course there was always the chance the one cat was going to eat all the treats, but at least in Junno's mind he had tried to be fair. Ueda often scolded him, saying Junno was the reason his cats had to the put on special kitty diets, but he knew Ueda spoiled all of his pets. After checking to make sure all the animals had enough water, he returned the treats to the cupboard and his dirty glass in the sink to be washed in the morning.
Heading back to bed, Junno crawled under the covers wrapping his arm around Ueda's waist tucking right up against his lover's back and settled down to fall back asleep. Ueda pushed his hips back into Junno's, letting out a low lustful moan, and for a moment Junno thought sleep was the last thing on his lover's mind. Propping himself on his elbow he looked down at the other man, Ueda's eyes were clenched tight in his sleep as his breathing was becoming heavier. With a smile Junno realised Ueda was having a sex dream, and from the way his hips were grinding into Junno's it seemed like an awfully good one. Leaning down he began showering Ueda's neck with kisses, if Ueda was having a sex dream Junno was going to do everything in his power to make sure he enjoyed it to the fullest. Though if he didn't stop grinding his hips soon Junno might just have to wake up his overly horny little lover and make the dream a reality.
Grazing his teeth along the skin behind Ueda's ear, Junno reached down and took hold of the other man's hardened length, Ueda crying out and turning his head into his pillow. Keeping his face buried in Ueda's neck Junno began jerking his lover, slowly at first then increasing the speed as the smaller male began moaning uncontrollably, hips grinding into the man's behind him even harder. Junno gritted his teeth as he felt himself grow fully erect, deciding the moment this dream was over he was waking up Ueda and burying himself once again inside his lover's sweet tight warmth. There was only so much a man could take, and Junno was rapidly reaching his breaking point. Taking hold of Junno's hand, Ueda forced the other man to tighten his grip sending himself over the edge and emptying himself over both their hands. "Kazuya!" Ueda muttered in his sleep arching his neck as the orgasm passed through him in waves.
Junno froze, pulling his hand back and feeling his erection deflate in record time, looking at his lover in shock and disbelief. He knew that Ueda didn't love him, but he had never thought about what would happen if he ever found out who his heart truly belonged to. A part of Junno had been clinging to the self-made belief that one day Ueda would grow to love him and they could finally be a true couple. With a simple word that belief had been shattered into a million jagged little pieces, each cutting their own painful wound in Junno's heart as now there was no denying it any longer. The love of his life, his Uepi, was in love with Kame, and knowing that hurt like Junno had never imagined possible.
Junno watched as Ueda settled back down to sleep, hugging his pillow with a look of pure satisfaction gracing his delicate features, blissfully unaware of what he had just done as Junno felt as if his entire world was crashing down around him. Then he noticed it, a small mark behind Ueda's ear, one that he didn't remember giving to the other man. Junno thought back to his apartment earlier that night, he was sure the mark hadn't been there when Ueda had left to meet Kame. But it was there when you came to his place, after he had been working on that song Junno thought with a sickening feeling growing is his gut. He quickly sat up in bed, looking at the man lying asleep beside him as if he had never truly seen him before. The evidence was all there and he had ignored it, the mark on Ueda's neck, the rumpled change of clothes and the fact that Ueda hadn't been able to be satisfied with four rounds of sex with Junno. Even with it all being forced in front of his face Junno still didn't want to admit it, didn't want to think the person he loved more then anything had been capable of doing it. He cheated on you.
Junno climbed out of bed feeling as if he had been punched in the gut then slapped in the face with an ice block. He still didn't want to believe it, that Uepi and Kame could do such a thing. Kame was supposed to be his friend! How could he do this to him and Koki?! Junno knew those two were sleeping together and had been for years, everyone knew about it. The same way everyone knew that Ueda was his and that Kame had been with Jin. They never talked about it, but the underlining knowledge was there. Kame had known that Ueda was with him, and yet they had still-
Junno collapsed onto the floor, tears finally falling. He couldn't think about it, couldn't put it into words. He leaned his back against the bed as the pain, betrayal and anger flowed through him. Maybe I should seduce Koki and see how Kame likes it he thought bitterly but dismissed it. It was a petty and vindictive idea and he was neither of those things. Junno was also pretty sure Kame and Ueda hadn't had sex, he wouldn't have needed four rounds of sex from me if they had. Junno shook his head, he needed to stop this thinking. Yes he was hurt and angry, but this wasn't going to help. Answers would help, and all he had to do was wait in order to get them.
Ueda peered open his eyes as the blaring of the alarm on his phone woke him up. Reaching for the contraption on his bedside table, he turned the offending sound off and flopped back down onto his bed listening to the sounds of the morning with his eyes closed. He heard shuffling around his apartment but knew it was only his dogs. The longer Ueda laid there the more something didn't feel right. Junno still hadn't cuddled up to him the way he did in the mornings he stayed at his place and he felt as if someone was watching him. Turning onto his back, Ueda squinted at the bed beside him to find it empty. At least he was pretty sure it was empty since there was no Junno shaped blurry blob lying beside him, but there was a blurry blob further away in his room and it wasn't a dog shaped blob. Reaching for his bedside table again, Ueda located his glasses and put them on. Looking in the direction the blob had been he found Junno fully dressed, sitting on the armchair he had put in his room for his cats. He had his right foot resting on his left knee, elbows resting on the armrests of the chair and his fingers laced together in front of him. It was the look on his face that Ueda noticed, Junno was sitting there watching him smiling, but it wasn't his regular smile. This smile was forced, leaving his eyes feeling cold. The longer Ueda looked at that smile the stronger the feeling became to wrap the covers around himself more snugly in order to warm himself up.
"Sleep well dear?" Junno asked sweetly, but it was a sickly sweet that matched the cold look in his eyes. This wasn't right, this wasn't his Junno at all.
Ueda pulled the comforter up around his naked chest, "um, yeah I did."
"Did you enjoy your sex dream?" Junno asked, voice full of bitterness, pain and betrayal, that false smile finally falling.
Ueda felt the blood drain from his face, this was not a good way to start a conversation. He doesn't know, his brain franticly told him. There is no way he could know. "um-"
"I just have to wonder, do you often dream about having sex with Kamenashi after spending the night with me? Or did you just dream about him last night because you cheated on me with him after you left my bed?" Junno asked voice dripping with venom as he spat out the questions as if they tasted bad on his tongue.
Ueda sat frozen to the bed, feeling as if Junno had just sucker punched him with his words. He could see the pain freely flowing across Junno's face and it hurt him to see it. It hurt him to know that he had caused it, and made him fight the urge to remove his glasses so that he didn't have to watch the raw emotions Junno was going through. He didn't though, since he knew he had to, he had to watch just as Junno had to show it to him. He deserved it since he was the cause of it, and he needed to feel the pain the same way Junno did even if it was for a different reason. He might not love Junno, but he did care about him. Knowing he had hurt this incredible man who had done everything in his power to make him happy, hurt him too. "How did you-"
"Know? That you were dreaming of him or that you cheated on me?" Junno asked, raising his eyebrows so they were almost lost within his bangs. "You called out his name in your sleep when you orgamed last night. An orgasm I helped bring you to, by the way." Ueda had wondered why he had woken up feeling sticky. "As for the cheating part, I found the mark on your neck Kamenashi left behind." Automatically Ueda's hand went to the mark behind his ear, as if to cover it up. Junno closed his eyes and looked away, the simple action admitting Ueda's guilt. Part of him had wanted Ueda to deny the whole thing. It was why he had waited for Ueda to wake up and why he confronted him, he wanted to be told he was wrong that he was reading into things too much. Instead Ueda was sitting there taking his anger, at least he had the decency to look ashamed with what he'd done.
"I have to know," Junno started, not really wanting to know the answer to his question, "was it the first time you slept with him or were there other times?" Junno opened his eyes to watch Ueda's answer.
Ueda swallowed before answering, "no it was the first time, and we didn't sleep together."
Junno ran his hands through his hair, "right because then you wouldn't have needed to call me all needy would you? But there was sex I'm guessing." Junno continued looking back at the man still sitting in bed.
Ueda looked down at his hands, unable to take the look on Junno's face any longer, "sort of" he answered quietly.
Junno stood, pacing the room before stopping in front of the bed again. "sort of!? How do you 'sort of' have sex?!" he yelled dragging Ueda's vision from his hands.
"We didn't have sex, he just um-" Ueda started wringing his hands together. He didn't want to say it out loud, not to Junno. Telling Junno what him and Kame had done made him feel like a whore. He knew his evening with Kame would be the only time he'd ever get with the one man he truly wanted, so he wanted that time to be special, now it was tainted by Junno's fury.
"What?! He just what?!" Junno yelled, becoming more angry with how Ueda was treating him. Ueda was the one who had cheated, he should be the one that had come clean. Junno shouldn't have to be dragging all the gritty details out of him.
"He sucked me off! There I said it!" Ueda finally screamed back throwing his hands up in the air.
Junno felt the air being sucked out of his lungs again. Knowing Kame had had his stubby little fingers all over his Ueda was one thing, but hearing what they had done was another. Hearing that Ueda's dick had been down another man's throat, that Kame had tasted the sweet flavour of his Tatsuya, was too much. It hurt too much and Junno had had almost more then he could handle at that point. But there were still things he needed to know, so against his better judgement me kept asking questions. "Then what, you set up a date to finish the rest off later?! Did either of you stop to think what this would do to me or Koki?!"
Ueda threw the covers off himself and climbed out of the bed walking right up to Junno, not caring for a moment that he was naked expect for the pair of glasses he wore on his nose. "Yes, I did. I'll be honest with you, I could have had sex with Kame last night. We were both willing, and I have a feeling it would have been amazing. But I didn't, I turned him away and told him to leave all because of you." Ueda told him in a low fury, which most people found more disturbing then when Ueda was yelling.
"Well next time don't bother Ueda. You won't have me to worry about since we're done. You're free to whore it up with anyone you want, since that's what you wanted isn't it?" Junno relied just as low and just as furious before heading out the door leaving a panicked Ueda behind in his wake.
"Junno, wait!" Ueda called frantically after him, but was only answered by the slamming on his front door. Crumpling to the floor he sat there is disbelief at what had just happened. When Junno had started questioning him about his time with Kame, Ueda never for a moment thought he would leave him. He thought they'd argue about it, maybe not talk for a few days, but eventually Junno would take him back. He never thought Junno would break up with him. That's what I deserved though he thought, but that didn't make the truth any easier to stomach. Soon the tears started to fall and Ueda had no intention to stop them. He sat there naked on his bedroom floor and cried for the love he had never had with an amazing man that he'd never have again. He cried for the man that he had hurt, and in turn had hurt himself in the process, and he cried for the feeling of alone that he hadn't felt in seven years. He fought the urge to reach for his phone and call Junno, he could always make him feel better no matter how bad everything seemed. Then he remembered the look on Junno's face as he said his name, 'Ueda' not Uepi or even Tatsuya but Ueda. Junno hadn't called him that in private for years now, which just made Ueda cry even harder.
Taking his glasses off, Ueda rested his head on the mattress as the tears silently fell. Time passed as he sat there doing nothing but thinking how could everything had gone so wrong so fast. Soon he felt a small furry head bump his chin. Putting his glasses back on, Ueda looked at all of his dogs that were lying around him. He ran his hand through the fur of the closest dog as he placed his paw on Ueda's knee, eyes asking if everything was okay.
"I'll be okay boy, one day I'll be okay again," he promised the animal. Looking at the clock Ueda saw that an hour had past since he had woken up, meaning he had lost his morning work-out. Standing he walked over to his closest and numbly dressed in preparation to take his dogs out for a walk before heading to dance rehearsal and seeing the two people that he just didn't want to see. One thing was for sure, today was going to be hell.
Title: Crazy Love
Author: fireside_story
Chapter: 6/?
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 3, 051
Genre: Angst
Disclaimer: I do not have any connections to KAT-TUN or any of the members past or present. I write this story for my own pleasure and make no profit from it.
Pairings: KameDa, KoKame, JunDa, Jinda (-ish), DenDen, mentions of past Akame. Basically it's a giant KAT-TUN orgy!! Well not quite.......
Summary: Ueda has been secretly in love with Kame for years but has been sleeping with Junno to try and forget about the younger man. Kame is still trying to mend his broken heart from when Jin left and is content with his relationship with Koki, that is until he starts working on a song with a certain piano man. As their relationship blossoms will Koki and Junno graciously step aside? And how will their new love handle the return of Jin into their lives.
Warnings: sexual dreams, mild language
Beta'd: nope. Like always I post first and beta second, don't ask me why.
Chapter 6
It was the simple things in life that Junno was truly grateful for, one of those things was watching his lover sleep. It wasn't something he got to do very often, only when he stayed over at Ueda's apartment, so he always made sure to take every opportunity when it came. Junno smiled fondly as he watched the sleeping man before placing a light kiss on his forehead and carefully slipped out of bed. He padded into the hallway and to the kitchen without needing to turn on a single light, he knew this apartment almost as well as he knew his own.
Reaching into the cupboard, he took a glass and filled it up with water from the tap. Ueda had pounced on him pretty much from the moment Junno had walked into his door. For hours after Ueda had demanded every ounce of his energy, ready for another round of sex minutes after the last. It has been years since Junno had found Ueda so horny but he wasn't going to complain, it was better then waking up to find the bed empty beside him in the morning. Lifting the glass to his lips, Junno heard a faint noise and felt something furry and soft rub against his ankles. Even before he looked down he knew it was one of Ueda's cats demanding attention in the form of something edible. Someone was awake and moving, therefore in the cat's mind it was time to be fed. Opening a different cupboard, Junno pulled out an envelope of cat treats. He knew it was too early to feed the animal properly, but he also didn't want the cat howling at the bedroom door and waking Ueda up. Walking to the cat dishes, Junno poured a few treats into both of them. He knew the other cat was hiding somewhere, he didn't feel right giving treats to one and not the other. Of course there was always the chance the one cat was going to eat all the treats, but at least in Junno's mind he had tried to be fair. Ueda often scolded him, saying Junno was the reason his cats had to the put on special kitty diets, but he knew Ueda spoiled all of his pets. After checking to make sure all the animals had enough water, he returned the treats to the cupboard and his dirty glass in the sink to be washed in the morning.
Heading back to bed, Junno crawled under the covers wrapping his arm around Ueda's waist tucking right up against his lover's back and settled down to fall back asleep. Ueda pushed his hips back into Junno's, letting out a low lustful moan, and for a moment Junno thought sleep was the last thing on his lover's mind. Propping himself on his elbow he looked down at the other man, Ueda's eyes were clenched tight in his sleep as his breathing was becoming heavier. With a smile Junno realised Ueda was having a sex dream, and from the way his hips were grinding into Junno's it seemed like an awfully good one. Leaning down he began showering Ueda's neck with kisses, if Ueda was having a sex dream Junno was going to do everything in his power to make sure he enjoyed it to the fullest. Though if he didn't stop grinding his hips soon Junno might just have to wake up his overly horny little lover and make the dream a reality.
Grazing his teeth along the skin behind Ueda's ear, Junno reached down and took hold of the other man's hardened length, Ueda crying out and turning his head into his pillow. Keeping his face buried in Ueda's neck Junno began jerking his lover, slowly at first then increasing the speed as the smaller male began moaning uncontrollably, hips grinding into the man's behind him even harder. Junno gritted his teeth as he felt himself grow fully erect, deciding the moment this dream was over he was waking up Ueda and burying himself once again inside his lover's sweet tight warmth. There was only so much a man could take, and Junno was rapidly reaching his breaking point. Taking hold of Junno's hand, Ueda forced the other man to tighten his grip sending himself over the edge and emptying himself over both their hands. "Kazuya!" Ueda muttered in his sleep arching his neck as the orgasm passed through him in waves.
Junno froze, pulling his hand back and feeling his erection deflate in record time, looking at his lover in shock and disbelief. He knew that Ueda didn't love him, but he had never thought about what would happen if he ever found out who his heart truly belonged to. A part of Junno had been clinging to the self-made belief that one day Ueda would grow to love him and they could finally be a true couple. With a simple word that belief had been shattered into a million jagged little pieces, each cutting their own painful wound in Junno's heart as now there was no denying it any longer. The love of his life, his Uepi, was in love with Kame, and knowing that hurt like Junno had never imagined possible.
Junno watched as Ueda settled back down to sleep, hugging his pillow with a look of pure satisfaction gracing his delicate features, blissfully unaware of what he had just done as Junno felt as if his entire world was crashing down around him. Then he noticed it, a small mark behind Ueda's ear, one that he didn't remember giving to the other man. Junno thought back to his apartment earlier that night, he was sure the mark hadn't been there when Ueda had left to meet Kame. But it was there when you came to his place, after he had been working on that song Junno thought with a sickening feeling growing is his gut. He quickly sat up in bed, looking at the man lying asleep beside him as if he had never truly seen him before. The evidence was all there and he had ignored it, the mark on Ueda's neck, the rumpled change of clothes and the fact that Ueda hadn't been able to be satisfied with four rounds of sex with Junno. Even with it all being forced in front of his face Junno still didn't want to admit it, didn't want to think the person he loved more then anything had been capable of doing it. He cheated on you.
Junno climbed out of bed feeling as if he had been punched in the gut then slapped in the face with an ice block. He still didn't want to believe it, that Uepi and Kame could do such a thing. Kame was supposed to be his friend! How could he do this to him and Koki?! Junno knew those two were sleeping together and had been for years, everyone knew about it. The same way everyone knew that Ueda was his and that Kame had been with Jin. They never talked about it, but the underlining knowledge was there. Kame had known that Ueda was with him, and yet they had still-
Junno collapsed onto the floor, tears finally falling. He couldn't think about it, couldn't put it into words. He leaned his back against the bed as the pain, betrayal and anger flowed through him. Maybe I should seduce Koki and see how Kame likes it he thought bitterly but dismissed it. It was a petty and vindictive idea and he was neither of those things. Junno was also pretty sure Kame and Ueda hadn't had sex, he wouldn't have needed four rounds of sex from me if they had. Junno shook his head, he needed to stop this thinking. Yes he was hurt and angry, but this wasn't going to help. Answers would help, and all he had to do was wait in order to get them.
Ueda peered open his eyes as the blaring of the alarm on his phone woke him up. Reaching for the contraption on his bedside table, he turned the offending sound off and flopped back down onto his bed listening to the sounds of the morning with his eyes closed. He heard shuffling around his apartment but knew it was only his dogs. The longer Ueda laid there the more something didn't feel right. Junno still hadn't cuddled up to him the way he did in the mornings he stayed at his place and he felt as if someone was watching him. Turning onto his back, Ueda squinted at the bed beside him to find it empty. At least he was pretty sure it was empty since there was no Junno shaped blurry blob lying beside him, but there was a blurry blob further away in his room and it wasn't a dog shaped blob. Reaching for his bedside table again, Ueda located his glasses and put them on. Looking in the direction the blob had been he found Junno fully dressed, sitting on the armchair he had put in his room for his cats. He had his right foot resting on his left knee, elbows resting on the armrests of the chair and his fingers laced together in front of him. It was the look on his face that Ueda noticed, Junno was sitting there watching him smiling, but it wasn't his regular smile. This smile was forced, leaving his eyes feeling cold. The longer Ueda looked at that smile the stronger the feeling became to wrap the covers around himself more snugly in order to warm himself up.
"Sleep well dear?" Junno asked sweetly, but it was a sickly sweet that matched the cold look in his eyes. This wasn't right, this wasn't his Junno at all.
Ueda pulled the comforter up around his naked chest, "um, yeah I did."
"Did you enjoy your sex dream?" Junno asked, voice full of bitterness, pain and betrayal, that false smile finally falling.
Ueda felt the blood drain from his face, this was not a good way to start a conversation. He doesn't know, his brain franticly told him. There is no way he could know. "um-"
"I just have to wonder, do you often dream about having sex with Kamenashi after spending the night with me? Or did you just dream about him last night because you cheated on me with him after you left my bed?" Junno asked voice dripping with venom as he spat out the questions as if they tasted bad on his tongue.
Ueda sat frozen to the bed, feeling as if Junno had just sucker punched him with his words. He could see the pain freely flowing across Junno's face and it hurt him to see it. It hurt him to know that he had caused it, and made him fight the urge to remove his glasses so that he didn't have to watch the raw emotions Junno was going through. He didn't though, since he knew he had to, he had to watch just as Junno had to show it to him. He deserved it since he was the cause of it, and he needed to feel the pain the same way Junno did even if it was for a different reason. He might not love Junno, but he did care about him. Knowing he had hurt this incredible man who had done everything in his power to make him happy, hurt him too. "How did you-"
"Know? That you were dreaming of him or that you cheated on me?" Junno asked, raising his eyebrows so they were almost lost within his bangs. "You called out his name in your sleep when you orgamed last night. An orgasm I helped bring you to, by the way." Ueda had wondered why he had woken up feeling sticky. "As for the cheating part, I found the mark on your neck Kamenashi left behind." Automatically Ueda's hand went to the mark behind his ear, as if to cover it up. Junno closed his eyes and looked away, the simple action admitting Ueda's guilt. Part of him had wanted Ueda to deny the whole thing. It was why he had waited for Ueda to wake up and why he confronted him, he wanted to be told he was wrong that he was reading into things too much. Instead Ueda was sitting there taking his anger, at least he had the decency to look ashamed with what he'd done.
"I have to know," Junno started, not really wanting to know the answer to his question, "was it the first time you slept with him or were there other times?" Junno opened his eyes to watch Ueda's answer.
Ueda swallowed before answering, "no it was the first time, and we didn't sleep together."
Junno ran his hands through his hair, "right because then you wouldn't have needed to call me all needy would you? But there was sex I'm guessing." Junno continued looking back at the man still sitting in bed.
Ueda looked down at his hands, unable to take the look on Junno's face any longer, "sort of" he answered quietly.
Junno stood, pacing the room before stopping in front of the bed again. "sort of!? How do you 'sort of' have sex?!" he yelled dragging Ueda's vision from his hands.
"We didn't have sex, he just um-" Ueda started wringing his hands together. He didn't want to say it out loud, not to Junno. Telling Junno what him and Kame had done made him feel like a whore. He knew his evening with Kame would be the only time he'd ever get with the one man he truly wanted, so he wanted that time to be special, now it was tainted by Junno's fury.
"What?! He just what?!" Junno yelled, becoming more angry with how Ueda was treating him. Ueda was the one who had cheated, he should be the one that had come clean. Junno shouldn't have to be dragging all the gritty details out of him.
"He sucked me off! There I said it!" Ueda finally screamed back throwing his hands up in the air.
Junno felt the air being sucked out of his lungs again. Knowing Kame had had his stubby little fingers all over his Ueda was one thing, but hearing what they had done was another. Hearing that Ueda's dick had been down another man's throat, that Kame had tasted the sweet flavour of his Tatsuya, was too much. It hurt too much and Junno had had almost more then he could handle at that point. But there were still things he needed to know, so against his better judgement me kept asking questions. "Then what, you set up a date to finish the rest off later?! Did either of you stop to think what this would do to me or Koki?!"
Ueda threw the covers off himself and climbed out of the bed walking right up to Junno, not caring for a moment that he was naked expect for the pair of glasses he wore on his nose. "Yes, I did. I'll be honest with you, I could have had sex with Kame last night. We were both willing, and I have a feeling it would have been amazing. But I didn't, I turned him away and told him to leave all because of you." Ueda told him in a low fury, which most people found more disturbing then when Ueda was yelling.
"Well next time don't bother Ueda. You won't have me to worry about since we're done. You're free to whore it up with anyone you want, since that's what you wanted isn't it?" Junno relied just as low and just as furious before heading out the door leaving a panicked Ueda behind in his wake.
"Junno, wait!" Ueda called frantically after him, but was only answered by the slamming on his front door. Crumpling to the floor he sat there is disbelief at what had just happened. When Junno had started questioning him about his time with Kame, Ueda never for a moment thought he would leave him. He thought they'd argue about it, maybe not talk for a few days, but eventually Junno would take him back. He never thought Junno would break up with him. That's what I deserved though he thought, but that didn't make the truth any easier to stomach. Soon the tears started to fall and Ueda had no intention to stop them. He sat there naked on his bedroom floor and cried for the love he had never had with an amazing man that he'd never have again. He cried for the man that he had hurt, and in turn had hurt himself in the process, and he cried for the feeling of alone that he hadn't felt in seven years. He fought the urge to reach for his phone and call Junno, he could always make him feel better no matter how bad everything seemed. Then he remembered the look on Junno's face as he said his name, 'Ueda' not Uepi or even Tatsuya but Ueda. Junno hadn't called him that in private for years now, which just made Ueda cry even harder.
Taking his glasses off, Ueda rested his head on the mattress as the tears silently fell. Time passed as he sat there doing nothing but thinking how could everything had gone so wrong so fast. Soon he felt a small furry head bump his chin. Putting his glasses back on, Ueda looked at all of his dogs that were lying around him. He ran his hand through the fur of the closest dog as he placed his paw on Ueda's knee, eyes asking if everything was okay.
"I'll be okay boy, one day I'll be okay again," he promised the animal. Looking at the clock Ueda saw that an hour had past since he had woken up, meaning he had lost his morning work-out. Standing he walked over to his closest and numbly dressed in preparation to take his dogs out for a walk before heading to dance rehearsal and seeing the two people that he just didn't want to see. One thing was for sure, today was going to be hell.