oh boy. i feel hopeless, defeated. im angry, depressed, pissed off beyond belief. im drawing back. hiding. im hurting.

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i love him <3...worst feeling EVER ( Read more... )

scary thought of the day... i still wanna die. i still think i would be better off dead. all the major depression is gone (so i thought)and i want to die. a lot. yay im still depressed and this is actually worse cuz not only does no one else know or care i dont know why and i cant change it and ill feel like this forever and the feeling is eating ( Read more... )

i havent written in here cuz i havent felt like elaborating on the thoughts going through my head, but i just realized , why do i have to? i dont.. so heres the thought that inspired this entry ( Read more... )

yet again i am in my house on a beautiful day. tom didnt call me back when e was supposed to (again). thanks tom and zack waits until 6:30 to say he cant hang out ruining any chances i have making plans with anyone else, because they all have people who actually care and want to fucking hang out with them so they have made plans by now. thank you ( Read more... )

better mood today, read the book sisterhood of the travelling pants in two sittings, and now imm on chapt. 9 of angels and demons. fought with zach twice, went to work. i have tomorrow off which is good, but i have to work again sat-tues and thurs 7-3. i hate get5tikng up early. so much for summer.dont know what im going to do about my crazy ( Read more... )

i decided im not going to try with anyone anymore. everyone lies to me. even the people i trust the most lie straight to my fucking face and im sick of it. im not going to trust anyone anymore and im not going to try. let them all go off to college, to their own lives with their real friends, the ones they actually care enough about not to act like ( Read more... )

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||| 53% Stability |||||||||| 33% Orderliness |||||||||||| 50% Altruism |||||||||||||||||| 76% Interdependence |||||| 30% Intellectual |||||| 30% Mystical |||||||||||||||| 70% Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Religious |||||||||| 36% Hedonism |||||||||||| 50% ( Read more... )