Life.

Not what you expect, is it?

I've been having a really hard time dealing with it lately. A LOT of changes. I've grown attached to someone, who's leaving to return to his home country. I've grown a liking to someone, while feeling deeply for another, who's heart I'm inevitably breaking, and a while ago, I fell for someone who can't be around.

I'm ( Read more... )

Alright so, mom has been on my case about everything under the sun, as usual... I really am starting not to care too much.

Another day... Another letter... Another problem.

So much shit has happened in the recent months, that I've become extremely cynical lately, and I don't particularly care who doesn't like it.

A few of my "Friends" are REALLY ( Read more... )

So yesterday, I hung out with Richard and Niki for the most part, until we were hungry, so we all went to subway to see Steph and get some food. Yummmy!

After that, Niki and I dropped Rich off, and then went back to get Steph once she was off work, ran by her house, and off to Eastbury we went.

Met up with John, bowled a few frames, took Steph home ( Read more... )

Things are kind of mediocre right now, and I’m not too sure how I feel about such things.

I went to the show at Evolution last night, Vicious Strike kicked soooo much ass!!!  I got lazy and didn’t feel like posting them to the FIP myspace yet, so here they are un-watermarked and all.  So Anywho, Veronica stayed the night with me, that was awesome, ( Read more... )

I've officially started the new year off from scratch.

I quit my job at Once Upon A Child.
I got hired as a waitress. (which is closer and less hours)
I'm not tangled up in some doomed relationship.
I'm happy.
I'm content.
and I'm feeling more adventurous than ever.
Best of all, This is the year of graduation.

FUCK YES!

I'm so excited, and eager to see ( Read more... )

I declare...

This year is my year for Trial and Error and Promotion.

In other news, I'm kinda pissed off, because Shayne told me he would sell me his darkroom, and my mom fucking said no. How do you just say no, when he was practically just giving it to me! I'm like... wtf.

I had to spend my entire day here at home, cleaning and such... I didn't get ( Read more... )

Mission CIMP was amazing!! ^.^

We took it to Cleveland at like 2am or something, made it back in time. I was soooo tired it wasn't even funny. We hit Walmart at 5 and I bought a CD player for my car and such, it was an exciting night.

The End.

So I was finally told some things... took long enough. It's all good though, I suspected EVERYTHING! Just kinda ignored it to see how long it'd go on. I'm not gonna lie, I really did have some seriously strong feelings toward him, but the hell with it. Where have strong feelings led me before...

Exactly.

Well I gotta work, tomorrow I'm hopefully ( Read more... )

"It Ends Tonight"

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling ( Read more... )

Ever tried to put your drunken mother to bed in a house full of men. It's a hard task to handle, especially after you just got off work and you're already exhausted.

As long as I don't fuck up in the VERY near future, I've passed my trig class for this semester. That's so exciting, I don't expect anyone to understand.

AP Art, I need like 14 more ( Read more... )