ow god my head. maybe morning drinking wasn't a great idea. hmm well i guess i'll just rink some water until my head clears and try my usual afternoon drinking

so i've been drinking sin ce 830 and i realize. i'm a total .loser. dont believe me? well i am. hell i've nevr even been lut on a date. I'VE NEVER KISSED A GIRL.but whatever i dont care. So im wastred spent sn hour or so talking to jesica nad playing with a loaded gun; so i unno anyrhing. i dunno at al what to do. the only solution i can think of ( Read more... )

yesterday sucked. played musical chairs with mom's car trying to get it fixed. Long story short its bqack in the shop and We're trying to figure out who's fault it is. I remain thoroughly depressed. Night before that was ok, me and alex and nikki stole an aligator. SO tonight Lejla IMed me. Nothing much. SHe didn't seem very interested in talking ( Read more... )

woke up 20 minutes ago. man am i depressed.

i'm feeling very depressed and dejected today. I hate everything. If I was a pussy I would start to weep but fortunatly I'm not so i'll just be grouchy and pissed off and engage in selfdestructive behavior.

i stayed up all night. again nothing new. life's just a great big waste of time. I miss stupid foreigner. Kinda depressed and lonesome.

past few days sucked. tomorrow i go to gainesville. i'm still none to pleased. i wish the world would explode before the next day comes.

so i stayed up all night sat night watching fear and loathing in las vegas after having mopped and c;eaned up nicely. I woke up at 3 sun afternoon and did nothing. So alex came by with nick and kris. we went over to the cousin's and got drunk. I came home, drank some more talked to Joy a little as well as others, got depressed more and passed out. ( Read more... )

hmmm well today I cleaned my room. It's quite immaculate and is filled with lovely brain cell killing bleach fumes. Lejla is online right now. I want to IM her but I won't. I was depressed earlier but seeing her online has cheered me a bit for some reason I don't know. Ohwell Any way so yeah I was depressed most of the day but I got shit done. ( Read more... )

eh i just woke up. Feeling depressed. Haydee is here bitching to mom. I'm in my room alone. Nothing to do. I feel empty. I can't do anything. I'm paralyzed i don't care about anything want to do anything can't even think of anything. I think I am dead.