For me, this weekend has been the worst. Illness, malfunction, and inactivity consumed me for three days with little recession. Looking back on the week, I’d say all that pent up stress is what did it. I made myself sick basically. Friday I got a ride home from school early because I couldn’t make it through the day in my frenzied condition. I knew ( Read more... )

Forgive me, for I have become deficient academically, spiritually, and in some cases, socially. My condolences if I’ve wasted your time, their time, or my time. I feel out of my head lately, is all. For awhile I felt really happy, and the world seemed so vivid and enchanting. I still have so many things to look forward to, I’m sure, but now I can’t ( Read more... )

Monday thru Tuesday my entire school was on the Florida Comprehensive Assessment Test schedule. In other words, they pushed it all on us in two long periods. I took the test in Mrs. Hipps’ room both days, which was pretty weird for me, sitting in with people like Grongor and Kyle Rich for two hours at a time. If anything, it was a barrel of sugared ( Read more... )

When it seemed as if my life could not be filled with more things to look forward to, there came Clay with an irresistible invitation. According to he and Nick’s plan, we (the two, plus Zac and I) were supposed to hang out and play Dungeons & Dragons for three hours, then call it a night. However, it didn’t quite happen that way. Our corporal ( Read more... )

I can’t believe it, and something makes me feel as if I shouldn’t believe it. But something’s happened, something great. I cannot begin to express the elation I am feeling at the moment - it is something unexpected, irrepressible, and surreal. How did this happen? How did I go from being so down in the dumps, to be howling with excitement rather ( Read more... )

Finally I have a solid plan for my summer trip to Appleton, Wisconsin. I don’t ken it will change too much now that there’s a solution to the train problem. Zac and I are taking an airplane instead, a big metal machine that will use the sky as its tracks and take us away from this sun shiney place and drop us off in a land of chocolate cheese. ( Read more... )

“Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.”

Pink Floyd’s The Wall is a film that always seems to inspire me no matter how many times I watch it. Something about it is so perfect to me. It may be the synchronicity of the album to the stunning visuals, the ( Read more... )

Let’s see if I can make at least one traditional journal entry for the week. As boring as it may be, I think it’s important that I do a couple solid-sequential entries this month. My lack of organization in these lately reflects the way I’ve been feeling, though, so excuse me if this seems forced at all. Well, I spent last night doing homework and ( Read more... )

Sometimes waking up in the morning is simply dreadful for me. Seeing the light of day used to be something refreshing, something to be happy about, but lately sleep has been my escape from my agonizing day-to-day schedule. As soon as I open my eyes I feel as if to say, “Oh no, not this again”. That’s not a very positive outlook, I know, but I think ( Read more... )

Hallelujah! The brats have been gone all weekend. They left the house an awful mess, but their absence makes up for any grunge I trip over. Some exciting things happened while they’ve been up in Ft. Laughterdale saving me irritation, things I shouldn’t have waited a day to document. For instance, my dad took me out to breakfast one morning at the ( Read more... )