Since Valerie left to Nashville earlier this week things have been so different here at home. I don't even know where to start, never bringing this up in my journal until now (sorry, I've been so behind lately). My dad's already situated -- he's got all of his belongings integrated with the inventory, his rules officially apply to the workings of ( Read more... )

What a week to get sick, mang. What a week for illness and relative lethargy to take over. School has been a pain lately in fold with this. If I can't even bring myself to write daily journal entries, imagine my level of academic motivation at the moment. It's not very high; in fact, I blew off a bunch of assignments today in order to attend Jim's ( Read more... )

Holy Moses, it's my turn ( Read more... )

In my house, it takes a lot of bitching before a resolution can be established for even the simplest problems. Last night I told Valerie about my friends' plans for this afternoon and she said she'd be more than happy to give me a ride over. This morning she starts a fight over this claim and decides to threaten me instead. She insists that her ( Read more... )

On Friday, after an ever-tiresome day of school, I was rewarded with a visited from Zac. Downtime with Zac is something I am always thankful for, as our moments together relieve me of all anxieties. Even if I am at an worse level of stress, he can bring me back to the realization that everything is fine. There's something special about us, where ( Read more... )

Finally the new grading period has begun and so has my improved schedule. Today I came to school feeling refreshed, knowing that I wouldn't have to sit through another class of Ms. Vivona's for the rest of the year.I realized that her class was the main reason I've been dreading school lately. That combinated dysfunction in her fourth hour block ( Read more... )

Let’s look at the bright side of life for a moment. Lately I might’ve been down in the dumps; I may have been frustrated and sad, dazed and confused, sick of existence. The deal is that I am not taking into consideration how much worse things used to be. Don’t come to me with that morbid crap, I’d rather be living a shorter life how I am now than a ( Read more... )

To describe how I feel right now would be rather difficult. Normally when I just come back from an evening out with my friends, I am fatigued yet pleased. I can sleep easily, and for a little while, there are no worries. Today however, guilt plagues me and a frightening sense of disassociation in my inner-circle is on the rise. Maybe I’m just being ( Read more... )

Since I need to get a lot into a little, in this entry I shall generalize a day in my life as of now. Hopefully, this shall make up for my discrepancy and allow me to sneak in some forgotten details. All right then…My dreams are disappointingly vague when I awake to Valerie’s harpy screech. There hasn’t been anything to write in my dream log for ( Read more... )

Keeping caught up with this journal is nearly as arduous as this homework I’m bugging out over. Jeeze, it’s impossible for me to stay consistent with anything anymore it seems. That’s what stress does, I guess. Alanna and I were just discussing that last night, the way academic devotion can easily backfire. Neither of us are doing so good right now ( Read more... )