i wonder what today has in store for me ......

I played out a horrible scenerio in my head last night...I did all I could and I hope that if the event occurs I can keep my head on straight and do what needs to be done. Sometimes, I'm really scared.

so, this is my second attempt to move down to Indy. I'm almost positive this one will work out. Except the fact that I need to find a job down there. I may have one that I can try to get. Who knows though. We found a house that sounds like a great deal. I hope it works out for us. We need this. Both of us do. I have applied to IUPUI for their ( Read more... )

I had a dream that I was voted homecoming queen. And for some reason it was one of the best dreams I have ever had. (it helped that patrick was my king...) But although I have almost never told anyone this....I would have loved to be homecoming queen. or prom. more homecoming. i had a few people tell me that they put me on their lists our senior ( Read more... )

I feel like I am losing myself again. I'm losing myself to save another. I have no idea what to do. I can't not stick around. But I need to figure out how to balance this without going crazy and without letting them down.

well, I needed a new computer....and that catchy Dell commercial where it sings " I am green today...." Yup, it won me over. I have a Dell being made for me right now. I hope it doesn't suck and lasts more than 2 years. Bah. haha. It's Plum Purple. I am excited....well not so much about the Vista...I like my windows XP. Oh well ( Read more... )

it's been one of those weeks or two where i really miss high school. i decided that so far over all, those four years of high school were the best four years of my life. so thank you to all of you who made that so. i miss you all. i really do ( Read more... )

Alright...so let's finish this once and for all. I feel like I haven't seen any of my friends in a really long time. I've seen Beth and Jimmy once since my birthday and rarely before that. Emily I have seen more than anyone else. Ok...that's about all the friends I got. hahaha. I have a new friend named Keith, he's a really great guy. I am ( Read more... )

So, life has been changing slowly but surely. I am still in love with Pat but I have gotten to a point where I no longer want to date him. One of those...I love him but we are so disfunctional alone and even worse together at this point in our lives. We just don't work. Which makes me sad. But it's how our lives are. I've heard from Brad a few ( Read more... )

is it sad that dissapointment never surprises me anymore??