i've been careful not to write this follow up to the last post, didn't want to write it too soon before i actually had figured out how i felt. I am a very emotionally driven person, and i find it easier to slip in and out of extreme emotions rather than wait it out and figure out what's going on in my brain ( Read more... )

i have a sinking feeling that my life as i know it is about to end. i had this insatiable need the other night to look at his phone. I wasn't sure why, but my gut said look. I looked and found some stuff that broke my heart. he was writing affectionately to some intern that apparently has sat in his office "just because" in a scandalous mini skirt ( Read more... )

i hate my job. I can't stand working as much as i do, but i live in a realistic way and know i must do it to survive. Also: i know that quitting before football season is done will burn any bridges i have there. Furthermore, i wouldn't know how to quit, because the only reasons i have for quitting is that i work with a few select assholes that ruin ( Read more... )

everything is worked out, but nothing is the same. I guess i need to stop expecting everything to remain the same, cause change is constant. I need to roll with the punches and not let little things upset me ( Read more... )

swallow my pride and continue to be treated like a child, because that is always how i have been regarded and i shouldn't have been so naive to believe otherwise... or throw away my best friend, the music.. life as i know it.

i guess it's not even a question really, i've already made my decision :(

i always feel like every second of every day is promised to someone else, anyone else but me. most of the time i'm doing things/seeing people that make me happy... but these days i'm working 6 days a week 7-9 hours at a time (mostly with people who cause me brain pain because they can't just be easy going) and have little time to do anything else ( Read more... )

i'm really happy with myself. And my life ( Read more... )

i am a lucky girl, in most senses of the word.

but i finally love feeling this way :)


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