Comments | feren: Twice in one week...

feren

Twice in one week...

Nov 07, 2002 22:42

This week has now had two nights I'm really wishing hadn't occurred. I hate it when the past comes up from behind me and clips me in the back of the skull with a seven-pound Physics primer. I'm left doubled-over, seeing nothing but stars and wondering what in the frell just clobbered me.

( Relationship angst, known to be caustic. You know you don't want to read this. )

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Comments 8

gen November 7 2002, 21:40:36 UTC

Feren, this is just one of those pointless comments that come out at moments like this... but I feel it needs to be said because I think it might help you a little.

I was thinking about you today. Simply in the respect of "I like feren. I hope to meet him someday. If he lived here in Orlando I'd probably adopt him and take him out to dinner and movies whenever I could because he seems like the stype of person what would enjoy that."

So you were in my thoughts, and I think very highly of you. I just thought I'd say that.

chebutykin November 7 2002, 22:18:08 UTC

I hope you do have the chance to meet Feren someday. He is a fantastic person, and I love him dearly. And he's very good for taking out to dinner and movies.

roho November 8 2002, 12:39:46 UTC

She just needs to come out to Chicago, and stay with me, Kes and Feren all in one fell swoop. We've got a comfy futon out in the living room, an obnoxious stinky cat, and a cleverly mischievous cat! Not quite the same as an evil soul-stealing fat cat, but it's better than nothing :)

enveri November 8 2002, 15:05:31 UTC

Agreed! Roadtrip for Gen and Scott! :)

chebutykin November 7 2002, 22:19:31 UTC

You are getting the biggest hug ever when I see you at MFF, and you can't do anything to deter me from that. So there. *grin*

dating pool yakko November 7 2002, 22:58:49 UTC

I've only ever had one girlfriend, and I'm not sure it was even a real relationship.

I haven't been able to try getting another girlfriend since.... and this "dating game" crap is -the- reason I don't see fit to try again. Not to say that I'd turn down something that just came up, but I don't see the value in wasting my energy on actually trying to convince someone that I'm all that. I've always felt cheap when I've attempted this.

At least I can understand what you're going thru, or try to. . . :o(

lcremeans November 8 2002, 01:47:34 UTC

Hmm. Looks like you're basically where I landed not too long ago, though I was there for slightly different reasons (in essence, they pushed me away for being obnoxious). I've thought about it many times...asking myself things like "should I try to creep back in and try to mend fences ( ... )

enveri November 8 2002, 06:06:55 UTC

I don't think that relating my own experiences here will really help you, especially since I don't think you're really wanting that happily ever after with the woman of your dreams- just wanting a chance to be happy yourself.

All I can say is.. I've been there as well. My past still floats up and wrenches me to pieces, even though I've been very happy with Bren. I guess what I'm saying, Fer.. if you need a shoulder, you've got one. What I said yesterday about the support system is true- I don't think you're used to leaning on people; you're one of those that resolves his issues himself in private. Just want you to know that if you can't tackle it alone, there are people that love you, that will support you.

*snug*