I love the idea of a cult that believes in magic in Central Park, but most of all I love the idea that Jensen is slowly healing, and that this interlude, however painful, was necessary for him to begin to rebuild his defenses.
Haha, the cult thing kinda snuck up on me. The good doc just went walking in the park, contemplating how oblivious the world around him was to this revelation he'd just experienced and a voice in my brain said "You really think there's not one person out there that sees what's happening and doesn't write it off as hallucinations?" And my muse went, "Huh. You have a point."
And yeah, I think this is just what Jensen needed to be able to look more forward than back, at what awaits him instead of all he's missed and suffered through. Not that I expect him to ever completely heal since it will probably always follow him in some way but you know...
I love the sense of closure this chapter gives. Not that I feel the story is ending!!! *waves hands frantically* At least, I hope you plan to continue this, especially with waving children in front of our faces!!! LOL! But I just feel that Jared and Jensen have been able to close the book on what happened to Jensen Inside in some way. That now that they have some of the answers, they can begin dealing with it, in a way that they couldn't before. And I love that.
I also loved Ben's fascination with Jensen, how he knew something was different, even if he didn't know why he knew. And I love uber-protective Chris, as always. And Jared. I love the connection Jared and Jensen have, how Jensen just gravitates toward Jared like a flower to the sun.
I thought it was incredibly sad that Jensen was so desperate to hang on to the one good thing he had left that he saw Jared when he was talking to Mason. That broke my goddamn heart, I swear.
Gorgeous, gorgeous timestamp. Absolutely loved it.
No, I know exactly what you mean. As much as Jensen had been telling himself it didn't matter whether something more happened or not the truth is it had been weighing on him all these years. This helps a lot in putting those ghosts behind him. [Ehm... or to rest? Haha, I'm too tired to keep my metaphores straight. lol]
I had much fun writing Ben. He was so fascinated with humanity in general and to have an enigma like Jensen fall in his lap must have been like the best puzzle ever. lol
I wanted to keep up with what Jensen told Jared in the original, that even if he lost everything else he never lost Jared. I'd been thinking about whether or nor to go deeper into that time but I'm leaning towards not. IT's just too emotionally draining to write and probably read as well. There is this one song though that I sometimes listen to when I need a reminder of what it might have felt like for him. I was thinking I'd might just post that, ask people to listen and let their imagination run free. *ponders*
I adore this verse so much! And always listen to a few minutes of the music Rach 2 was eerie as hell... God it made me shiver! Doors is amazing- as usual *loves* xxx
God, I love that Rach piece. It's just so powerful. And that's just the first movement. (But it is the part I love the most.) I'm really happy you liked it as well.
Yes, you did! Thank you very much. Sorry, for not answering earlier. I have a good excuse as I was running around fixing graduation docs. Actually today is a New Year for Orthodox people and I just read your story, so its actually been gift both NY's. Wanna let you know that all my expectations were met, its truly a beutiful story. Again thanks for writing it :)
Again you have whisked us away to a magical place filled with light and love. This is seriously such a gift! So thank you for such a wonderful way to ring in the new year!
I'm just glad that Jensen found some peace especially after his unfortunate reunion with his mother!
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I loved this, as I love everything about "Doors."
I love the idea of a cult that believes in magic in Central Park, but most of all I love the idea that Jensen is slowly healing, and that this interlude, however painful, was necessary for him to begin to rebuild his defenses.
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Haha, the cult thing kinda snuck up on me. The good doc just went walking in the park, contemplating how oblivious the world around him was to this revelation he'd just experienced and a voice in my brain said "You really think there's not one person out there that sees what's happening and doesn't write it off as hallucinations?" And my muse went, "Huh. You have a point."
And yeah, I think this is just what Jensen needed to be able to look more forward than back, at what awaits him instead of all he's missed and suffered through. Not that I expect him to ever completely heal since it will probably always follow him in some way but you know...
*hugs*
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I also loved Ben's fascination with Jensen, how he knew something was different, even if he didn't know why he knew. And I love uber-protective Chris, as always. And Jared. I love the connection Jared and Jensen have, how Jensen just gravitates toward Jared like a flower to the sun.
I thought it was incredibly sad that Jensen was so desperate to hang on to the one good thing he had left that he saw Jared when he was talking to Mason. That broke my goddamn heart, I swear.
Gorgeous, gorgeous timestamp. Absolutely loved it.
Happy New Year!!!
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I had much fun writing Ben. He was so fascinated with humanity in general and to have an enigma like Jensen fall in his lap must have been like the best puzzle ever. lol
I wanted to keep up with what Jensen told Jared in the original, that even if he lost everything else he never lost Jared. I'd been thinking about whether or nor to go deeper into that time but I'm leaning towards not. IT's just too emotionally draining to write and probably read as well. There is this one song though that I sometimes listen to when I need a reminder of what it might have felt like for him. I was thinking I'd might just post that, ask people to listen and let their imagination run free. *ponders*
Anyway, thank you, honey. *hugs you*
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And always listen to a few minutes of the music
Rach 2 was eerie as hell... God it made me shiver!
Doors is amazing- as usual
*loves*
xxx
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God, I love that Rach piece. It's just so powerful. And that's just the first movement. (But it is the part I love the most.) I'm really happy you liked it as well.
*hugs*
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Happy New Year to you and your Family!
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Did I get that right?
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I'm just glad that Jensen found some peace especially after his unfortunate reunion with his mother!
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*hugs*
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