I miss Garren..and I want him to be mine again. He's the only one who can make me want to live..without him.. everything is fucking pointless. I don't know why I even try to move on..because I know I never can. I know I'll never be happy unless I'm with him...and I'll never be with him. I hate these tears that I have to cry. I fucking hate ( Read more... )

My Garren is back. I think he'll be here for a while. I won't be so stupid this time. I'll tell him how I feel, I'll actually send him the things that make me think of him. I won't take him or these feelings for granted. It may hurt like a bitch, but it's the best kind of hurt you'll ever feel. I just want to make him happy, so as long as I'm ( Read more... )

Forgot this existed ( Read more... )

Garren needs to come back to me...it's been ages since I spoke to him, told him I love him..I need to hear from him. I need to know he's ok...When I'm not with him everything is so...plain I need it to not be plain anymore. i need a reason.

Everything's so...weird right now...I should be concentrating on getting into the school I want to go to..but I can't. Everything sucks too much...I can't think about the things I should be thinking about...my mind is too full of other shit.There's still no one to tell anything to ( Read more... )

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Everything sucks. Robin is moving to N.C., those whores I used to hang out with are backstabbing bitches, I haven't had a real conversation with Garren in forever, I'm doing badly in school, life at home sucks. Everything is fucking pointless ( Read more... )

I don't know what's wrong with me. Everything is wrong. All I want is for Garren to be here. I have all these other side-loves going on, but that's just to distract me from the fact that Garren can't be here with me ( Read more... )

I don't write in here much anymore.Mostly because no one else who would care to read it knows it exists. I miss JR because he didn't judge me. I could tell him things that I couldn't tell other people that are 'there for me' because they're all part of what's wrong. JR was far away enough that things weren't about him, but close enough that I could ( Read more... )

I don't have much reason to write an entry today, nothing all that important happened...I just don't want to forget this later ( Read more... )