Outside the Perk - Late, Late, Late Wednesday Night
After Caritas, where he'd decided to become a Dairy Queen monk with LB, vented to Jarod the bartender and been consoled (sorta) by Glitter Girl, Kawalsky kept drinking until it was just about time for Caritas to close. He decided that while the tiki monkey glass was wrong about disembowling being a good idea to get someone's attention, making a phone call was a good idea. Unfortunately, he forgot the 'wait until your brain isn't carpeted' part.
The closing call for Caritas came and he made it to the door and down the street to the closed Perk. Charlie stopped, leaning against the Perk wall and slid down until he was sitting. It took some effort, but he fished his cell phone out of his pocket, pressing 1 on his speed dial. Thank goodness he didn't have to try dialling the number manually.
"Hey, it's me. The tiki monkey said I should write you a letter, but I wanted to call you even though s'late and m'probably too drunk to be doing this right. I just...I said stuff yesterday. A lot of bad stuff, y'know? An' it was wrong. It was. An' you said s'm'stuff too an' it hurt, Alanna. I dunno how to fight something like that. How do you get to fight something when the person you're fightin' with knows your weaknesses? You can't do it. You can't win, all you can do is sit there and take it. I don't know. An' just so you know, I don't want Sam. I mean, she's my friend and all, and I used to feel that way about her, but then I met you, y'know? God, it's this place. This place changes everything. It's crazy. I didn't mean it yesterday. I didn't. I was upset and this year's been everything. I've had forever and done so much stuff and it's been nothing like this year. How can you deal with that? I mean, there was good stuff and bad stuff, but then I *died* and then that was it. That was it, y'know? I don't know what to do 'bout that. This year's been the best ever and now it's over and I don't want it to be. You can't change that, 'lanna, but I don't want it to. I don't want you to go away. I know you have to. Duty's everything to you. Used to be everything t'me too. Don't know what happened to me. But now this all goes away. All of it. It's gone and I can't...I don't wanna go without you. But you gotta do your thing. I knew when I fell in love with you that was gonna happen, and I was sad but it was easy to ignore and now it's not. Now it's real. Now I can't pretend and I want to. I want to pretend that it's all staying the same. You gotta go back to Jon and I don't want you to. He doesn't deserve you. But if you can just let everything go like you say you can, then maybe he does. An' maybe you do. Then you can be Queen an' you'll get ev'rything you want. I got nothin'." The line went silent for a while. "Go home to your Prince."
The line went dead. The bitterness in that last line was hard to miss.
The cell phone went back into his pocket and he rubbed his face, looking up at the sky. Maybe he just needed the next two weeks to hurry up and pass. Then he could get out of here. He could forget about Fandom and move on. It wasn't what he wanted, but there were a lot of things that Kawalsky wanted that he didn't get.
Like peace and quiet.
[OOC: For time_agent. For all your outside late night/early morning Apocalypse Ave fun after they're gone.]
The closing call for Caritas came and he made it to the door and down the street to the closed Perk. Charlie stopped, leaning against the Perk wall and slid down until he was sitting. It took some effort, but he fished his cell phone out of his pocket, pressing 1 on his speed dial. Thank goodness he didn't have to try dialling the number manually.
"Hey, it's me. The tiki monkey said I should write you a letter, but I wanted to call you even though s'late and m'probably too drunk to be doing this right. I just...I said stuff yesterday. A lot of bad stuff, y'know? An' it was wrong. It was. An' you said s'm'stuff too an' it hurt, Alanna. I dunno how to fight something like that. How do you get to fight something when the person you're fightin' with knows your weaknesses? You can't do it. You can't win, all you can do is sit there and take it. I don't know. An' just so you know, I don't want Sam. I mean, she's my friend and all, and I used to feel that way about her, but then I met you, y'know? God, it's this place. This place changes everything. It's crazy. I didn't mean it yesterday. I didn't. I was upset and this year's been everything. I've had forever and done so much stuff and it's been nothing like this year. How can you deal with that? I mean, there was good stuff and bad stuff, but then I *died* and then that was it. That was it, y'know? I don't know what to do 'bout that. This year's been the best ever and now it's over and I don't want it to be. You can't change that, 'lanna, but I don't want it to. I don't want you to go away. I know you have to. Duty's everything to you. Used to be everything t'me too. Don't know what happened to me. But now this all goes away. All of it. It's gone and I can't...I don't wanna go without you. But you gotta do your thing. I knew when I fell in love with you that was gonna happen, and I was sad but it was easy to ignore and now it's not. Now it's real. Now I can't pretend and I want to. I want to pretend that it's all staying the same. You gotta go back to Jon and I don't want you to. He doesn't deserve you. But if you can just let everything go like you say you can, then maybe he does. An' maybe you do. Then you can be Queen an' you'll get ev'rything you want. I got nothin'." The line went silent for a while. "Go home to your Prince."
The line went dead. The bitterness in that last line was hard to miss.
The cell phone went back into his pocket and he rubbed his face, looking up at the sky. Maybe he just needed the next two weeks to hurry up and pass. Then he could get out of here. He could forget about Fandom and move on. It wasn't what he wanted, but there were a lot of things that Kawalsky wanted that he didn't get.
Like peace and quiet.
[OOC: For time_agent. For all your outside late night/early morning Apocalypse Ave fun after they're gone.]