first off and you read this i would like to say thank you to all my friends for giving me the best birthday of my life.

school will have a happy and bittersweet last month.

Joyces has become like a hide away from everyone i know and i love working there.

track is great. (my knee really hurts)

so yeah pointless.

one year ago i thought to myself, "i really have changed from the person i was a year ago."

now one more year ahead i look at everything i've done and think once again "i have changed from the person i used to be."

the more i think about it
the more i hate thinking about it

i just keep saying it to myself.....3 more months.

• Meeting and Seeing Ace Anders
• Winning 300 dollars
• Hanging out with all my good friends
• Playing and watching football
• A suprising turn around

tonight was fantasitc. it was everything i could have hoped for and more.
it was such a fucking good time. good music and good enviroment.
got myself a t-shirt. and yeah just a damn good time.

I just took an extremely hot bath and listened to the new Straylight Run EP and took like a nap but I was aware of all my surroundings while my eyes were closed. I felt like I could have been there forever and that would have been just fine. I just felt so relaxed and free from any worries that I've had. oh yeah shut up

I've been accepted to FDU. Got money to go there to. I'll proably go there. Got the two things I needed to get the other day after school.Things have been very dull and slow as of late. I just find myself in the same routine every day. School, gym, work, don't sleep.  I need to go on a trip or something to just get away from everyone and everything ( Read more... )

....i've been listening to alot of Kind of Like Spitting
it doesn't have the same depresive affect as it used to
but it works for the mood either way
Bridges Worth Burning is me in a nutshell right now
so I will just continue to listen to that and the other ones
until otherwise.....

So I don't sleep anymore.
And when I do I wake up every 2 hours.
Great.

so today something was renewed in my head you could say.

i asked a buddy a mine a question and he brought up a good point about myself that i think i forgot. the topic of the question and were it came from are not important but the answer was.....

"Who cares Jay? Since when were you one to care about what other people thought about you?"

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