my birthday is in 5 days. i wish i was spending it with an ideal group of my old friends ( Read more... )

hey,

this is for the Anonymous people that are discussing my life:

if you have an opinion concerning me, then at least leave a name as to who you are--

because i see these Anonymous comments as a way of avoiding ever REALLY talking to ME about this topic.

so if you could all be so kind--

Thankyou.

i'm sorry that my last post caused an argument between 2 anonymous people...it wasn't supposed to be anything of the sort. i believe i did say i'm happy as long as the people i love are happy--i MEAN that by the way ( Read more... )

coming to the realization that things don't stay how they were is:

hard.
sad.
painful.

but also:

a new beginning.

i'm going to miss how things were last summer, but as long as the people i love are happy, then so am i.

so today is my first day without a ciggarette in a long time.

i'm quitting, and i know, i say that a lot---but i'm fucking serious.

and i'm sick of people thinking i can't do it, and just because of that, i'm going to fucking prove them wrong.

isn't it amazing how people can make you sick even when they're fucking thousands of miles away?

ok, not amazing...

more like down right pathetic.

15th of July...8:30ish pm.

I'll be home.

A - Available: no, yes, what ( Read more... )

i don't know why, but it happens.

things change.

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on another note. the big 1-7 in approx. a month.

i'm not old, but i feel old. well more like i feel like the past 5 years of my life went by really fast.

i'm talking like i'm 50 here. what can i say? i think too much.

every day i gain a new friend here..

i feel like i lose another back home.