He called me today! :D ( Read more... )

I shouldn't talk. Just shouldnt. Seems like I mess things up even more. Stan IS right. I shouldnt even think because that adds ( Read more... )

I didnt think I could do it ... but I did go up to him and ask to be friends :) I felt so good after that. We talked for a bit and I just said everything I wanted to say. I somehow tend never to remember all the good stuff that happens. I dont remember everything that we said to each other so I'll paste Stan's and my convo which has some of what I ( Read more... )

And its over for sure .. apparently we did plan on becoming friends last night which I wasnt sure of because I had kissed him and he kissed back? This was right before we left for home ( Read more... )

He told me I am one of his good mates and that he didnt want to lose me as a friend ...

What I didnt tell him is .. I dont think I can be his friend since its over ... I cant pretend like everything is fine .. I cant ... Maybe if we're in a group (i.e. Ains, Sav, Roger and our friends - not his) it would be different? I wouldnt know till we try ( Read more... )

Nothing feels right anymore ( Read more... )

Went to bed at 8.30 last night and woke up 2 hours later 'cause of a bad dream ... and sent this to Nabeel.
Bad dream. Whats happening to us? I know you feel it too .. the change .. Distant...Just lay in bed for a while after that ... and no reply ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday Silvie beyonddreams
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Last night was great. Went to Sav's and we got drunk ( Read more... )

I feel so fucking miserable ( Read more... )